2006-05-06

Keep the Faith...

The weekend’s here…past couple of weeks been way too much to handle! Seems like I still had a lot more growing up to do. I found a lot of comfort in the words most of u left for me in the last post comments…

I don’t know if many of you find some solace in songs or Music? I don’t have a very defined taste in music as such and like everything else in my space, the videos I put up also reflect what’s on my mind…or the kind of music I like listening to at a particular point of time…

Right now I’ve put is a song to see me thru the weekend…and I do hope there’s a lot more positive things to look ahead to in the week ahead…

Enjoy the weekend ppl…I have some plans and places to visit too…and the thought of that is enough to make me want to smile :-)!

Below are lyrics to what u’re listening to right now here at my space!

Keep the Faith - Bon Jovi

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Mother mother tell your children
That their time has just begun
I have suffered for my anger
There are wars that can’t be won
Father father please believe me
I am laying down my guns
I am broken like an arrow
Forgive me
Forgive your wayward son

Everybody needs somebody to love
(mother, mother)
Everybody needs somebody to hate
(please believe me)
Everybody’s bitching
’cause they can’t get enough
And it’s hard to hold on
When there’s no one to lean on

Faith: you know you’re gonna live thru the rain
Lord you got to keep the faith
Faith: don’t u let your love turn to hate
Right now we got to
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Lord we got to keep the faith

Tell me baby when I hurt you
Do you keep it all inside
Do you tell me all’s forgiven
And just hide behind your pride

Everybody needs somebody to love
(mother, father)
Everybody needs somebody to hate
(please don’t leave me)
Everybody’s bleeding
’cause the times are tough
Well it’s hard to be strong
When there’s no one to dream on

Faith: you know you’re gonna live thru the rain
Lord you got to keep the faith
Now you know is not too late
Right now we got to keep the faith
Faith: don’t u let your love turn to hate
Oh you got to keep the faith
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Lord we got to keep the faith

Walking in the footsteps
Of society’s lies
I don’t like what I see no more
Sometimes I wish that I was blind
Sometimes I wait forever
To stand out in the rain
So no one sees me cryin’
Trying to wash away the pain

Mother father
There’s things I’ve done I can’t erase
Every night we fall from grace
It’s hard with the world in yours face
Trying to hold on, trying to hold on

Faith: you know you’re gonna live thru the rain
Lord you got to keep the faith
Faith: don’t let your love turn to hate
Right now we got to keep the faith
Faith: now it’s not too late
Try to hold on, trying to hold on
Keep the faith
2006-05-02

Reflections...

***A note of warning…people used to my feel good posts should understand I do have bad days too!!! and if u wanna smile, please revisit my last post Ishi = Mummy = Pishi = Chachi !!! I luvv my babies:-) ***

A million people can come and criticize my writing here in my space…it doesn’t affect me negatively. Criticism taken positively makes me improve and better myself.

(Okk…the funny thing about the above statement is… “ishi…a million??” hmmm!!…I’d be lucky if that many even got here…)

What upsets me is when people who don't know me get personal…and what hurts me is when people who know me personally don’t appreciate any effort I might be making. I don't know which hurts me more though!

I know I know…I grew up hearing it too… “Do your work and don’t worry about results”… and I say it often too … “U know urself…why worry about what others have to say!”… But at times I find myself getting worked up and upset…and I hate it!

NO not hate the situation as much as I hate myself for letting such stuff affect me.

This whole weekend has been a tough one…and if I thought the weekdays would be calmer and more peaceful…I was as is obvious from the tone of this post…thinking wrong!!....

When I posted the quote on death in a recent post, I had no clue I would be facing the loss of someone who had come close to my heart in the last couple of years…and we (myself, my closest friend Suchi
and her family) are still coming to terms at the loss of her father.

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I remember that quote … “tough times don’t last...tough people do!”…and I am praying that she will have the strength and the courage to move on.

I also read this… “'You'll get over it...' It's the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life for ever. You don't get over it because 'it' is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not erased by anyone but death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit. Why would I want them to?”… And I completely agree with it! Yet life does go on...

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Hmmm…while I was reading the above quotes, another one caught my eye… and this has nothing to do with the above...I was just struck by the intensity in it!...read it for yourself...
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
- Neil Gaiman

Any thoughts people?...