Quote of the day

"True love doesn't come to you it has to be inside you. "
- Julia Roberts. American Actress, b.1967

Thots from the past....

"I’d written this way backkk…before I got married so I don’t necessarily think the same way now…but yes…while going thru old journals I came across it again and thot I’d post it here (ummm…i did modify the language & a few expressions!)…I guess aftr this I should write how I feel about love now!!..."

LOVE… just a thot…

I think every relationship has a saturation point. Love is truly blind initially but once you get over that temporary blindness, reality can be startling…sometimes you can live with it…sometimes you feel alarmed. And through all of that, you just want to get back to that initial feeling …that heady feeling when you fall for someone…when every second away from the one you love seems like eternity! When you’re still discovering everything about this new wonderful person in your life and everything to do with them seems so fantastic. You do know why it seems so wonderful in the beginning?? It’s just ’coz we’re putting out best foot forward! It’s all about impressions and right then we’re at our best…sum of us trying our best to be Ms / Mr. Right!! (our version of it)!

Then you settle into a “comfortable” relationship. I think at that point of time some amount of expectations seep into the relationship. Yes, initially we’re too caught up in getting to know someone to really think of any long-term expectations. Right then, it’s just that very moment that counts…that moment spent with him/her. Expectations are truly, in my opinion, the beginning of the end of a relationship. OK don’t raise your eyebrows!! I know you’d say everyone has expectations and that it’s human nature…and yes, I agree it is. I guess I should rephrase what I said. I meant that unreal expectations are the beginning of the end of a relationship. I am not an authority on relationships of course but I’ve seen many examples around me … mine included, to arrive at this conclusion.

Unfortunately love leaves one incapable of realizing or seeing the consequences of a long-term relationship…when we start thinking of what next…we’re already in a commitment. Some of us feel we can change circumstances…some feel we can walk out if things don’t suit us…some of us wait for a miracle to happen… but more often than not, the best option is to just clean up the mess…and move on. (Easier said than done for a lot of us.)

What I’d luv is to be always “falling in luv!” and rather not “be in luv”…. Wish that were a possibility!! Would you sit here and believe in “forever”… what in the world is forever?? And who wants it anyway? Forever has way to many seconds…minutes…hours in it!!!

Okk… just another thought before I get distracted again…I just re read what I wrote…I guess a lot of ppl would be shaking their head saying “what an escapist…why only luk for pleasure and ignore pain?!” Welll…I got a whole lifetime ahead to experience pain…(yeah I know no escaping the inevitable) but right now pleasure is just fine by me! ;-)

Packing!!!

Packing!!
I never get it right...
Try as i might…
Sumthin always gets left out
It’s sooo exasperating...
I wanna shout!!

Loll...so much for rhyming:-)

But believe me it's true...
I hate packing...
Where to start…got no clue...
I keep packing again n again...
U watch me...
U just tell me...
Forget it...
I would gladly...
But i don’t see u helping me!!!

Oh...U’re laughing??
Wanna know sumthin?
Last time u packed
And we reached our destination...
Wasn’t me but u…
Tearing ur hair out in frustration...
Where’s my this...where's my that??!
Ha ha ha.... u’re just as bad!

So get up!!
Get here!
We’re gonna do this together...
And do it well...
So we don't end up...
Blaming each other:-)

About relationships

Read these lines while surfing thru sites...we say this to ourselves many times "we hurt those we luv the most"...but i luvdd the way it's been put across in these lines...

There's one sad truth in life I've found

While journeying east and west

The only folks we really wound

Are those we love the best

We flatter those we scarcely know

We please the fleeting guest

And deal full many a thoughtless blow

To those who love us best

~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

thots...

it's d 25th of Oct...haven't been writing anything of late...sort of wierd days since puja got over. well for starters everytime i spend time wid sumone...we pretty much end up agruing!!..hmmmm...and.. hang on!!..i lost track of what i intended to write abt (happens...way too often wid me)... It's these Diwali patakhaas distracting me....don't they just get louder each year? can't be my hearing improving wid age!! whoaa..that was loud..! as if to prove my point:-)...sooo coming back to what i wanted to write abt...i've had lots of time in hand so what did i do? besides packing for my trip ... and running aftr my son (4yr olds can be such brats...so much for terrible two's...a fren said "didn't they know this cld last till 22!!"...i guess i've just accepted my fate!)...what i've been doing is going thru blogs...here on this site...on msn...and several other plcs! phew what do i say??!! It's like opening doors and just whammm...u walk into sumone's life. It's fascinating...like one guy who wrote abt his experience abt bein a FOB in the states...another ridiculing all his frenz...hmmm! and this gurl who dedictated her space to her BF .... and Eminem!...and another one where this girl wrote abt her ex...in a series of poems...which i totally fell in luv wid:-)..she sure did vent out feelings. hmmmm...then another blog mentioned by a fren...and that was interesting coz sumone spoke of 1st luv and raised a ques abt luv vs. frenship.....i read travelogues..movie reviews...celebrity blogs..phewww!! ohh..forgot to mention a good frenz blog...coz wen i don get to talk to him much...i nvr lose track of what's goin on wid him:-)...his blog keeps me updated. All these blogs made me sit back and wonder...why do I limit myself to just posting poems I write when i have nuthin btr to do!!!...lol...maybe my upcoming trip will make me do sumthin i've wanted to do for a longgg time...write a travelogue!! hmm...time to go...we got macaroni bake fr dinner:-)...no wonder dinners early tonite!! .....and most important of all..last but not the least...a spl. prayer for sumone special...get well soon...

Friends to Lovers?

You know that feeling?
When a single glance…
Can send your heart racing?
When you hear the sound of...
Your own heartbeats in your head?
That’s luv baby...
My best friend said....
Luv?
Is it really luv?
Have we really progressed…
From friends to lovers?
All these years how...when...?
But why am I seeking answers!
You...just you and me...
It’s as clear as it can be...
We’re perfect...and meant to be...
But...
Is it just me?
I wonder…
Do u feel the same way too?
If I said I love you....
Would u say the same too?
I hope...i agonize...
I despair...
Nights and days pass…
Do u even see…
Do u even care?

My Baby

He’s so naughty!
Ohh...he’s run away again!
That constant refrain…

Yet I luv to watch that mischievous grin
To hear the sound of his feet racin’…
To hear him yell “mummmyyyyy!”
To cuddle him…to sing to him…
When he’s tired and sleepy…

He infuriates me at times…
Turns me into a screaming shrew!
No No No…baby No…I yell…

Yet I luv to watch him recite a poem
To rush to his bus stop and get him home…
To buy him that puzzle he luvs to make…
To celebrate his birthdays with the biggest of cake…

What joy he brings…what tears he causes…
To all at home…the center of attraction…
Making us laugh…making us angry…
He’s such a lovable distraction…
I luv to watch him grow…
I luv him so much…u know….

If Only

If only my life was a dream…
Then I would always be with you…
If only my life was a dream…
I would never be alone…never be blue…

If only my life was a dream…
Your smile would be only for me…
If only my life was a dream…
Our love would be for all to see…

If only my life was a dream…
I wouldn’t stay restless through the nite…
If only my life was a dream…
To all our love would seem so right…

If only my life was a dream…
Unreal as it may seem…
I’ll want to live it forever…
And wake up from it…never…

At the bus stop

I see you…
On my way…
To the bus stop
Everyday…

I don’t know what it is…
The look on your face…
Like you’re thinking…
Or lost looking into space…

I don’t mean to pry…
But you always catch my eye…
There’s sadness there…
In your eye…

Makes me wonder…
Who … what hurt her?
These thoughts cross my
mind…
While you make small talk…
With another child’s mother…

Your eyes meet mine…
You give me a smile…
Was it my imagination?
Or did I see a teardrop shine?

Reminisce

I smile…
Reminiscing...
The way your fingers
Brushed my lips…
The way your lips followed...
Tracing your luv...

I laugh...
Reminiscing…
The things u did to make me laugh...
The stand up routine...
The sound of your laughter...

I cry...
Reminiscing...
The way u looked at her...
Your hands...holding
her...
The promises broken...

I hurt...
Reminiscing...
The days...the nights...
We shared...
Never to hear u...
Never to feel
u...

I hope...
I pray...
I will survive...
Will survive a
life …
Without u...