I believe...

Ideally I’d like to crib about my lousy connection but those who know me well have been hearing this for ages now and they’re also the ones who visit my space here and I can guess they’re rolling their eyes and saying “Oh God not again ishi!!!” ….. he he :P

Ab kya kare…that’s the plain and simple fact! I feel really handicapped and as a result I’m quite irritable now days. Its frustrating to have things to write about and then have the whole thing just lying here … unpublished! Hmmmpfhhhh!!!! Then when I do manage to get a post put up…I find that I’ve run put of patience and time to surf around and read up my fav blogs…yes yes I mean yours…and your and hmmmmmm…everyone!!

I couldn’t put up my Valentine post on time either. No not here but in my other blog “pOeMs ‘n’ QuOtEs”. I did put it up later though. I guess some times things aren’t supposed to be there when u want them to. You know how people say in hindi “har cheez ka apna time hota hai” (everything happens in its own time).

I do believe that (No silly not b’coz of one post not getting published as planned)! I believe in it seeing and observing the way life’s been for me and people around me. We can plan it all but there’s no surety that we’re gonna get the results we want! Hell sometimes it sucks but sometimes the results are so much better than we could ever imagine!

Then there are those times when we’re waiting for something to happen and it just doesn’t….and the wait seems unending! No light at the end of the tunnel….and then out of the blue, things happen…and they happen so fast, one’s left breathless and too stunned to react. I mean all that in a very positive way…don’t you just love it when that happens?

Something like this happened recently with a dear friend and it makes me smile coz it makes me believe that no matter how miserable things around us get, good times do come if you have the strength to keep moving forward.

Hmmmm :-) ...

Another incident that gives me the strength to face the depressing times life sometimes throws up is to do with a friend I met online. Someone I’ve never met but have known for two years now. We got to know each other at a time when I was very vary of people I met in chat rooms or networking sites. But he came across as a very genuine guy and we hit it off very well. In the course of our conversations I learnt a lot about him and vice versa. He was very candid about himself. It shocked me to learn that a guy so young and with so much to see of life was dealing with an extreme state of depression.

There was a day when he was going through a really bad time and all the things he had to say that day had me scared for him. He seemed at a point of no return. I don’t remember all the things I said to him but I do remember telling him that he could never know how wonderful his tomorrow could be if he let his today overwhelm him like this. I kept talking about how much more of life there was left to see and how a negative situation doesn’t last. I admit I said a lot of it just to make him feel better about himself and his life because I for sure couldn’t tell him that I knew what it was like to be in his shoes coz I’ve never been there…never been to that extreme.

I don’t know if what I said had an effect on him. He insists it did. He says that I happened to be there for him at the right time. All I know is God puts us in these situations…

My friend wasn’t the only one who got past that day with a new belief in himself. Today he’s doing well for himself, with a wonderful life, career, and found the love of his life soon after.

I learnt a lot from that experience too.

I learnt that there are times when life gets very tough and we lose all hope and we just can’t seem to see the silver lining. But people around us can pull us through. That just having someone believe in us can make all the difference.

And when I face a difficult situation or get depressed about anything, I think of that day when I talked to my friend. I tell myself, why I can’t I believe in the things I was trying to convince him about? When I put things in that perspective, I find it easier to believe that I can get past it all…

Ps: The music playing is “I believe I can fly” by R.Kelly and has everything to do with the post!! :P ... Lines from the song ...

"I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly"