Seeking Comfort...

The post below was written on 21st April 2006 when I had gone through a rather rough patch and one that had me oscillating between happiness and sorrow. The last couple of days have been undoubtedly some of the most disappointing days in my life. I read through this post in the morning...simply to feel better about myself and things around me...(edited the last bit ofcourse)...

"Over the past few days I have been through a whole range of emotions and in the process wrote two posts…each very different from the other and depicting different emotions…I am putting them up together today…

Sometimes I feel you won’t find a better example of a true Gemini anywhere else ;-)!!! …

The first one was written on 20th April 21, 2006 (Thursday) and the second one the following day on 21st April, 2006 (Friday)…today.

Words…

There are times when I stop and question my faith in the almighty...testing times…painful times…when happiness seems to be a stranger.

But then I find solace in words…words of people known and unknown…in the faces of loved ones…in the concern in their eyes and the love in their hearts.

Circumstances overwhelm me sometimes…but I guess time heals all wounds.

I read these quotes and I do believe they strengthen my belief in words being comforting…

“Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death.”

“There is sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” - Washington Irving quotes

I am not one to let tears overwhelm me forever…I know letting go of the past is not easy but I cannot be blind to my future…because ahead is where I know life will give me more experiences…good…bad…happy…sad…and I for one want to live every moment…to the fullest.
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Reasons to Smile…

When we think of luxury…we think big homes…cars…expensive clothes…shoes!…Everything materialistic…But I think of luxury in terms of time…time well spent…time with loved ones…with special people…even time spent alone doing things we normally wouldn’t find the time to do…be it reading a good book…watching our favorite television show…enjoying our favorite meal…or spending time in doing something creative…or like I am doing now….time spent blogging :-)!

One small exercise for everyone…think of something that made u smile and feel good about yourself today…and if it isn’t too personal, tell me why! :-)

Mine first :) (31st July, 2007) …

Guess this will not surprise anyone coz it’s about Vedant! … well, every morning he has this routine…once ready for school he walks out of the house…picks up the morning paper and hands it to me, gives me a nice longgg hugg and a big kiss! So I am assured that on weekday mornings I will be smiling!

It’s the little things in life that matter…right?"

My Frame of MIND!

ANGER
It doesn't matter
I really don't care!
Why show you bother?
...that you're there!

I can see right through you
Your fake concern
You make such an issue
Inside I burn

I hate hearing you
I hate looking at you
I know I don't need you

I have love in my life
I value people who matter
People who genuinely care
Who listen...who share!

Can I be more explicit?
Do you not get it??
You're making me hate
The person I am!
Filled with resentment,
That's what I am!

I'm a better person without you...
Believe me...
My life won't crash with out YOU!

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Steer Clear!!!
You don't like what u see...
You say I’m being unfair...
You think u know me...
You think I really care?

You have no clue...
I’m not just about
Sentimental shit...
Agree with you…
Day in and day out...
That’s just something
I won’t do…

When I have a bad time,
When I’m in that frame of mind...
It makes no difference
If my poem doesn’t rhyme
And makes no sense…

So long as you get the drift…

Read my lips loud and clear…
Stay out of my face…
Get out of here…
And off my case!

I'm Voting For ...

A lot of people I know think watching "Indian Idol" on Sony TV is so passe' but well I'm all for it and don't miss it! Ditto for "Voice of India" on Star TV. But this is about my favs on Indian Idol :))

By far my favorite is Ankita :) though I do really like Deepali and Amit :D .. my fav performances fromt these 3 so far ... watch the videos below (time nikaal ke..araaam se!)

This one by Ankita always leaves me smiling...esp. when Govinda joins her on stage... :))))

Amit has that sumthin in him na....*sigh* ;-)...and he's brilliant in the "nasha yeh pyar ka nasha song" (video below) but I loved him in Gala 4 too when he sang "Tum kya jaano" no.... R will tell u I was dancing away here (watch this link :):)..!

Deepali rocks :)... this girl has sheer talent!! :)

Finally, I'd love to see a girl be the next IDOL! :))

What a Shame!!

Strange I'd never heard of this so called "Bikers Club" that creates havoc on Delhi roads couple of times in the month! I first heard of it while watching one of the news channel. 100-200 odd bikers on the roads...speeding and having fun at the expense of other commuters discomfort...eve teasing on the roads and then attacking the cops who came to restore normalcy. What a SHAME!!!

Not that these guys are criminals or from a bad lot. They appear to be from normal families yet look what happens in a mob situation. Your reasoning goes for a toss. Pity! And I wonder what kind of upbringing these guys have had....I mean tomorrow if my son were to indulge in this kind of behaviour I would question myself...What did I not get right?! The parents of the guys...I really wonder if they were so ignorant of where or what their children or in some cases *grown* men were doing?!

Stuff like this disgusts me. Remember the kids in Gurgaon who hit the watchman of a building? And how the parents of the kid actually defended their kid! Agreed they're young and reckless ... whose fault is it? And then instead of making them realize the gravity of the situation, parents simply set an even worse of example by not even admitting their child made a mistake...a huge one that could have cost a poor man his life??! And why the hell, did they let an underage kid drive a car??!! What kind of families are these??!!

I really really worry about the kind of friends V will be interacting with as he grows up. Sometimes I feel all these schools with their fancy images and insanely high fees are all hogwash! If need be I won't hesitate to pull him out of the one he is in, if I have to keep him away from kids of such irresponsible parents. It's one of my biggest insecurities coz I know all kids go through an age when friends mean everything and God forbid he gets into *wrong* company...It'll be hell getting him back on track.

Back to the "Bikers Club"... I saw the media clippings on TV and these guys looked they could hardly care and all that mattered to them was having FUN and showing off big time. No regard for anyone or anything.

One cameraman of the TV channel was bashed up bad by these "biker" goons so that these images wouldn't make it to the news. The cops managed to arrest 40 odd guys but then if it's true that many are from well to do families and we already know the kind of value system they have from these incidents....we can be assured that these guys will pay off the system and get away scott free...!! And get back to hounding the city streets...

As though having to worry about terrorists and bombs, blue line bus accidents and killings and diseases like Dengue and what not were not enough to deal with!!!

Addicted :-)

Couldn’t resist taking this quiz!

How Addicted to Blogging Are You?
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Answering some of the questions was fun!! I kind of guessed what my score was going to be :-)

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I’m getting very impatient u know. 21st will see the release of the next “Harry Potter” book. In fact the last of the series and I dread to think of what after Harry Potter. For all the harry fans, it’s not about just another book! It’s about the end of a journey. A journey which has taken us to a whole new world of magic and fascinating tales…of characters who’ve become so familiar and who we relate to much like we do with our friends.

I for one am left with mixed feelings…a sense of excitement to know what next and a sense of loss at knowing….no more after this!!

I am sure all “Potter” fans are experiencing similar emotions. It’s truly going to be the end of an era…a whole generation that lived and experienced the “potter mania” as it unfolded through the past years.

Yes when my grandkids read these books (if I live long enough), I will tell them about all the hype every time a book released….how the movies ran to packed theatres…how crazy we were about it all!!

I will miss it… I truly will… the only consolation is that there are still two more movies to wait and watch…

I guess if I get the book on time … I pre ordered on the net u see… I will be quite inaccessible through the next week or till I get done with the book. I intend to savor each and every word…:-)

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The last thing of course is the big birthday bash this Sunday which has kept me busy most evenings…sending out invites, packing return gifts and settling details. All is more or less settled. There’s also a science exhibition in V’s school on sat. A busy weekend again. And no school tomorrow because of the exhibition. Phew…

That’s it for today!

Ps: Got a new Jukebox on the sidebar....pick a song and enjoy... :))... currently bollywood music only but I'm working on more playlists!!

What a morning!!

Now that I am done fiddling with the template here and pretty much satisfied with the current look, lets start writing right?

Today's papers had a front page story on road rage and a man who was killed on the roads after a fight. It was the most disturbing thing to read early morning when I usually munch my toast and sip my tea. What kind of people are these? Who simply beat a man mercilessly to death just coz their vehicles scraped each other??!

Apparently, the victims car was scraped by a bike with two guys on it and they had an argument. Later when this man drove away, these men followed this guy to the next intersection and this time were joined by three other friends. They caught up, beat this guy and finally hit his head with a stone flower pot ... leaving him to die...

Road Rage is an urban disease...a menace. One that sadly we bring upon ourselves. Everyone's in a rush to get somewhere...people have no regard for traffic rules...regulations. I mean hey if we're not gonna get caught...so who cares right if I skip one red light or overtake from the wrong side? Or if I speed a litte? And watch out dude if you hit my car, I'm gonna smash your face!!! Or do you know who I am ... do you know who I know??!!

The guy yesterday was on his way home from the gym.... going back to his family ... a son and a daughter and his wife! Who would've thought he would never make it home?

Everytime R gets into an altercation on the roads...my heart races. I know he wouldn't hurt anyone but what do I know of the guy in front of him? Who knows who has a gun these days.... there are instances galore of people getting shot and deliberately run over.

What kind of people are these? Where does all this rage stem from? How do they simply kill a perfect stranger? If they're leading stressful unhappy and angry lives, that's their problem! How does lashing out on a stranger on the road make things any better?

It's a sad world we live in. Will things change? How will they? Who will...make the first effort to say "hey sorry...I should have been more careful".... Is "sorry" such a dirty word?

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The one happy thing today is of course the fact that it is Vedant's birthday :) :) ... that happiness is shared in my daily blog :)

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The song playing is unrelated to the post... from the movie "cash"... the title track! Yes I know...sounds like u've heard it before ;-)

Cash (Extended Mix...

I AM BACK here...

Coming Back To Life - Pink Floyd
Where were you
When I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by
From my window watching

Where were you
When I was hurt and helpless
Because the things you say
And the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself
On someone else's words
Dying to believe in
What you heard
I was staring straight
Into the shining sun

Lost in thought
And lost in time
While the seeds of life
And the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous
But irresistible pastime

I took a heavenly ride
Through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past
And coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride
Through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..
Into the shining sun...

Liked the lyrics and now play the song :)

Pink Floyd - Comin...