I'll be back...

Rushing through this...I won't be around for another couple of days. Just tied up with stuff here and also my internet connection is not back yet! Using the landline to connect and it's a very pathetic one...the connection I mean. Also switched back to the old template for some time because it takes less time to load!!! :-) ... *sigh*... I miss my space...and I miss all of u...!

Enjoy the weekend ppl...Today is "Shashti" (6th day of the navratris) which is the beginning of Durga Puja celebrations. Wishing the Goddess showers her blessings on all:-)

More laterrzz...bye and God bless. Keep smiling :-)

Ps: The music is the same that was playing past time...

Updated the Pics Blog (click here! )

No Way To Protest....

Alright I know I said I would be away (Read my previous "This is not Goodbye") and yes I am in some ways “AWAY” but below is a post that I just had to write...Read it and you will know why I just had to write about it...

“A lot of you must have seen the news about protests against the sealing drive in Delhi (for the uninformed this is to do with the court order which requires all commercial properties functioning in residential areas to be shut down). What was meant to be a peaceful protest turned horrifyingly violent on Tuesday last. Though the worst affected area is nowhere near where I stay, I personally felt the effect of the protest and in a way that made me feel extremely vulnerable and weak.

Protests are common place in Delhi though there has never been an instance of it being so widespread in the past. Delhi being a truly cosmopolitan city would never stop functioning. But what happened on Tuesday was spread out and for a cause which affects a large section of Delhi’s population – The traders and their workers.

Why am I writing about something that’s being debated in practically every news story? No I am not here to discuss this issue. I am here to just share a part of this whole ruckus...a part that affected me personally.

Not sensing any particular reason to not function or continue with our day like any other day, we started Tuesday like just another regular week day. Rajiv went to work and Vedant went to school.

At 11:30 am I went to the bus stop to pick up Vedant. What is normally a 5-10 min wait....stretched to 30 minutes. By which time we (parents) were quite worried. Some people on the street told us that in the neighboring area protestors had stopped all vehicles. What we know as “chakka jaam” (chakka = wheels & jaam = stop!). This got us more worked up. I called the school and got the number of the teacher in the bus. She tried sounding calm on the phone and told me that they were trying to get past the mob and get the children back safe and secure...told us to stay where we were and not attempt to reach them. We waited another 30 minutes...it seemed like the longest wait ever in my life. I was scared and worried about Vedant and all the other lil kids.

In my heart I believed that no one would harm children who had nothing to do with the protest. In my head I could not rationalize what kind of people would stop a school bus full of little children? I cannot describe the crazy emotions I felt...but the one thing I could not shake off was fear...fear of anyone hurting my child...

Finally the bus did arrive with all the children safe and I heaved a sigh of relief. My fear gone, my anger abated. Later that evening I watched the news in horror as I saw the violence in other parts of the city and heard of a little 7 year old child who lost his life when hit by a rubber bullet used by cops to disperse a violent mob...

The following day I read of other school buses that were stopped. One for 8 whole hours! And another where children were forced out of the bus and then the protestors pelted stones and destroyed the bus. And in their rage they couldn’t wait till all the children were out of the bus!

I don’t understand why? This is a free and democratic country. People have a right to protest, to be heard and demand to be heard but why like this? Is violence an answer? Do they think they will gain the empathy of others not directly affected by the sealing by causing hurt and injury to innocent school children? Is their cause everything and our safety and security worth nothing?

And did it take the loss of 4 lives...all innocent and one a child of only 7...to make them realize that their protest went completely berserk? And I haven’t heard a voice of remorse anywhere. The one thing I hear is “This was bound to happen when the Govt. did nothing to help us.”... I agree the Govt. didn’t...I also know the opposition parties politicized the whole issue. I could buy the police theory that some anti – social elements joined the protestors and they got the crowd violent. But the common man...the traders? Where was their conscience when children were being harassed and hurt?

I heard a trader on TV talk of how he would pay his children’s fees if he had no means to earn his livelihood and my heart went out to him and all others worrying about how to live through this. Did these same people not realize what agony they caused us (those who empathized with their dilemma) when they involved our children in their fight? Used them as soft targets to gain attention?

I still feel for them and their worry and insecurities. I do hope that between the Govt. and the Courts a solution to this mess is found and implemented. But I don’t support the way they carried out their protest or rather the way they let some handful of crazy people let mayhem rule. I would have walked the streets with them and their families but not anymore. Not when I don’t see the same concern in them for my family.

Call me selfish...self centered...whatever! But this is no way to get your way...peaceful protests have been successful. Our country has shown that in our history...that’s been the pride of our nation – we're so proud of it and we talk of it to the world...that Mahatma Gandhi not only preached non violence, he lived it and made us live it to gain our freedom.

There’s a movie out in the theatres which is inspiring people to get back to those teachings and it’s the “IN” thing @ “Gandhigiri” (Gandhism) but take a look at reality and you’ll see that’s just another movie fad....a fad that will fade when the next big movie hits the screen!"

Ps: the song playing is “Save the children” by U2. Lines from the song below...

Pic: Vedant and his friends on his birthday :-)

“I just want to ask a question
Who really cares?
To save a world in despair
There’ll come a time,
when the world won't be singin'
Flowers won't grow;
Bells won't be ringin'
Who really cares?
Who's willing to try to save a world?
That's destined to die
When I look at the world it fills me with sorrow
Little children today are really gonna suffer tomorrow
Oh what a shame, such a bad way to live
All who is to blame, we can't stop livin'
Live, live for life
But let live everybody
Live life for the children
Oh, for the children
You see, let's save the children
Let's save all the children
Save the babies, save the babies
If you want to love, you got to save the babies
All of the children
But who really cares
Who's willing to try?
Yes, to save a world
Yea, save our sweet world
Save a world that is destined to die...”

This is not Good bye!

Next Monday, my dance classes will resume! This time the venue has moved further away...*sigh*. But I guess it will be worth all the time and effort spent and we (Vedant and I) will have just as much if not more fun this time :-)... Meanwhile Suchi checked out a place where they teach salsa and asked if R and I would like to join (they have Sunday classes) but R didn’t seem interested. Let’s see how that works out...

I haven’t had the inclination to blog lately. Yet at the same time, I can’t seem to just completely stay away from my space...hmmm...part of the reason is my pathetic connection (my service provider’s been upgrading stuff and looks like he plans to take forever to fix things!) and part of it is that I am distracted by the thought of Durga Puja which will begin next week on the 28th! Anyway, with the net connection all wonky I can’t get around blogs either and read posts or comment or reply to comments on mine! It’s got me sulking a lot!

Rajiv will leave for his trip to the US on the 30th and will be away for around 12 days....so we have stuff to take care of before he leaves. I’m so envious coz he will be visiting my brother & his family too. I so wanted to go but I got a visa appointment date for much later...pity :-(

Also getting Vedant’s passport made...finally! We want to go on a vacation around diwali (damn it's still a month away *sigh*). Vedant will have a 10 day holiday then. I got my fingers crossed that we firm up our plans soon:-)! But it’ll be a really short break as R can’t take too much time off from work. We’ve taken Vedant with us on all the trips organized by R’s office (to Corbett, Pushkar & Khajjiar) but never just the three of us. Last year R and I went alone to Goa while Vedant stayed home with my parents! I’m quite excited with the thought of taking him along.

He told me he would love to go to the beach. He looks at our Goa pics and he’ll keep asking why he isn’t there in the pics...hmmmm! So we thought of Goa again...then R got some deals for Singapore. So now we’re waiting to decide between the two. I just want to see Vedant’s reaction to the Sea!

I remember the first time I saw the sea...I don’t remember how old I was but I remember what it felt like! I screamed excitedly, “Mummyyyy kitnaaaa saarraa paani!” loll... (“Mummy sooo much water!”) And I was in love with the beach and water...

Anyway, the pace of this blog will probably slow down while I get back to dance class, get set for Puja and stuff ready for R’s trip...and till this “I don’t want to write” phase lasts!

Okk... something else that’s making me sulk...Suchi quit blogging...ummm...she says “time constraints” which I can’t argue with! Any other reason, I'd like to tell her for the umpteenth time ( in my opinion) is all crap! Whatever....

And something that makes me smile is this idea John (Me) came up with in his post "One Crazy Idea" ... take a look at it guys. I think it could work...we were talking about it again today and I suggested starting it on test run basis...I’d sign up for sure...if my rotten connection lets me!!! I’m not getting into explaining what it’s all about coz he’s really put it across quite well in his post. So go read it, will you :-)

That’s it bye guys:-)....for a while...maybe a short while....maybe a long while...! But not foreverrrr! No Way!

The music playing is "Goodbye" by Def Leppard.....lines from the song....

"I'm just praying, you hear me saying
I'd be there if the sun refused to shine
As the night gets colder I will be your shoulder
I give you my heart until death us do part
Every day, every moment, forever

Cause when the love is strong the feeling's never gone
There's nothing wrong in trying to realize

You won't ever have to say goodbye
You won't ever have to say "I've wasted all my time"
If the dream you dream ain't what it seems
Just look into my eyes
You won't ever have to say goodbye"

Ps: And much as I would love to reply to all your comments in previous posts as soon as I get them...I can't seem to in time! :-(....hmmmm! But I will slowly :-)...

Time For Some Memories...

"I love going back in time and thinking of childhood days. What I loved most was the fact that I never had to worry about things…so called “responsibilities!” and all I had to do was study in time, do my school work, keep my room neat and follow timings set by mom! Life was pleasant if I didn’t neglect all that…

I loved going over to my friend’s places or having them over and playing games, watching videos or sometimes just sitting and talking, reading books, comics! I remember the time I lived in Delhi as a kid. We lived in central Delhi and the colony had around 60 flats (Central Govt. flats) and there were quite a few kids there. We would all hang out together and evenings would be quite noisy with lots of games and cycling too. There was a local market close by where we would go and buy stuff like chocolates or rent videos. There was a stationary shop where they sold comic books too but the owner was a rather grouchy guy…I have a vague memory of his sulking face!

Close by was a library (a make shift one) where we would borrow books from. And on some weekends we would plan parties and take the keys for an empty flat from the colony office. That way we wouldn’t be messing up our own homes too! One of my friends’ had an ice cream maker and we would make lots of ice cream…borrowing ice and milk and sugar from all the flats! Promising everyone some ice cream but eventually finishing it all by ourselves! :P

Ice creams also remind me of an ice cream vendor who would come every evening and we would all wait eagerly for his arrival with many of us offering to push his ice cream cart! The sweet guy would let us buy ice cream on credit too and kept a monthly/weekly account for us! We paid for it when we got our pocket money :-)

I celebrated my 13th birthday at that time (a very special birthday…first year as a teen!) and had my first crush there! Hmmm! My first date and later what could be termed as my first heartbreak there…*sigh*…and a few more memorable firsts! :-)

I remember how all of us knew that eventually we would all be moving away (our parent’s being in Govt. service and transferable jobs) and making solemn promises never to forget our friendship(s) and there was this plan of all of us meeting up in the same place when we were done with college...I think we had even fixed a time and place! Now those memories bring a smile to my face and a longing to know where all the kids I played with are…I did keep in touch for sometime but life moves on right…now I have just pleasant memories to remind me of those days…

Sometimes I envy people who have lived in one place all their lives or at least grown up in one place and never had to move every 4 years to a new place. Then again I do feel that part of the reason why I find it easy to accept change and begin anew is because as a child, I had to that so often. Every couple of years, I had to start a new life all over again! That’s also why I am blessed with so many childhood memories of different places, many friends and many learning experiences…"

Ps: The song playing is “summer of 69” by Bryan Adams

Read my poem “When I think of...” God bless and hope this is a fabulous week for everyone:-)

Edit: only beta blogs are visible...I get an error msg on non-beta blogs...i think ppl need to switch to beta....!

Autummmmmmnn! :-)

Hi ppl :-) … remember the post I’d done about summer heat and my Top 10 Cool Thoughts list?

Well, the season’s changing again…No, nowhere near winter yet but Delhi even in its famous extreme climates does have a transition period…Yes, autumn! Not the beautiful autumn one experiences else where and definitely no comparison to the lovely fall colors that I’ve seen in pictures that my brother sends of his neighborhood in Chicago.

No this isn’t Chicago! But a random pic I liked a lot!

Change in season here in Delhi, isn’t such a nice transition. The first things to hit the city every time the season changes, is viral fever :-(! Once I see people in my family suffering (did I mention I don’t fall ill that often? *touchwood*), I know ok summer is on its way out. It’s as though it gets cooler right away. It’s still very warm…and hot at times. Delhi’s autumn is quite like summer but toned down!

What I like about this season is that it’s also festival time. Ever since I was a child, my grandma would tell me “now that puja (Durga Puja celebrations) is here, winter will follow”. By far, one of the best times of the year, as we get to witness all the fun and festivities for more than 2 weeks and then the grand finale is of course Diwali (the festival of lights!).

Puja 2005 – GK II, New Delhi

Durga puja festivities at the Puja pandal start on the 6th day of the Navratra’s (In north, all 9 days are celebrated with a whole lot of fervor and devotion). I have never been a very religious temple going devout Hindu...but my belief in my God(s) is very strong and extremely personal. I enjoy Durga Puja not just as a religious event but also a social and cultural event. Yes, the thought of family and friends at a time like this, is a very emotional thought…and this year will be an exception with not much of family around me.

Anyway, I got here to try out a list again :-) …. A Top 10 Autumn List like my good old summer list…

Coffee anyone? :-)

**More hot coffee…tea sessions!**

**Pre Diwali house cleaning sessions…**

**Buying new clothes, shoes/sandals/jewellery….a new wardrobe!**

**Storing away summer clothes and getting out all the winter clothes. Getting out my favorite denim jacket…flaunting my leather jacket ;-)…pretty colored stoles…leather boots! Ohh yes :-) silk saris and salwaar kameezes at the Delhi shaadi season!**

In a sari:-)

**Spending lazy mornings drying my hair in the sun…chatting up with my neighbors**

**Puja hopping!visiting different puja venues in different localities & savoring all the yummy snacks on sale:-).Buying knick knacks & making it to the local pandal on time for the bhog (puja meal) every noon**

**Planning a holiday (remember we did the Goa trip same time last year?)**

**Already planning the Annual Christmas Party**

**Warm baths… :-)**

**Following it with lots of nice fragrant moisturizer.**

Hmmmm…what’s your autumn list like? :-) …*sigh*…I can’t wait for winter now. Keep smiling everyone!:-)

Ps: the song playing is “I love your smile” by Shanice.

A journey of 365 days...

Warning: This is a rather long post!!!

Happy Birthday BLOG!! :-)

It’s been one year since I put up my first post here. I was blogging earlier too but on Yahoo 360°. I moved to blogspot after visiting several blogs. It was Vipul (better known as wanderer to some of you!) and Rohan (I met both these guys on a chat site - IndiaTimes) who got me visiting when they started blogging. Sadly, neither of them blog anymore. In fact a lot of blogs I read regularly in the past have been abandoned…some I believe have been deleted too! People left for different reasons…some left without a word, leaving us wondering why?

In this past one year, I’ve lost count of the number of blogs I’ve been to…some that I visit regularly are in my blogroll. Many in that list no longer blog actively…yet I can’t seem to get myself to strike off any of them.

To say that my life changed because of blogging may sound like a big statement but that is the truth! I chose to be a stay at home mom and initially Vedant did take up a lot of my time. But as he grew and became less dependent on me for every lil thing, I found myself with a lot more time in hand. Blogging filled that void and in a way that has turned out to be very satisfying and fulfilling. I found a means of staying entertained, of expressing myself and most importantly, a means of making new friends and learning from their stories and experiences.

For a long time I blogged without receiving any comments or reactions. For me, it was like writing my journal but in a place where my thoughts could be open to scrutiny. It never bothered me that I got no reaction and I kept putting up post after post. I wrote (and I still do) for myself and to satisfy my need to express myself. Initially, there were just poems. Slowly, I started writing regular posts. I didn’t think at the time that blogging here would one day become a source of new relationships…I had no clue what the future held in store! :-)

I’ve come a long way since! It still amazes me that people find my posts on Vedant amusing or identify with my posts on rather normal and ordinary musings of my life. And they actually read and appreciate my attempts at writing poems…!

I want to make a mention of people who’ve made this place so special for me. Needless to say that I can’t stay away from blogging for too long. When I have to coz of travels or guests at home, I start getting restless and miss the place a whole lot! This post is not just a celebration of one year of blogging but of getting to know a whole lot of wonderful people here! People who have made this seem like home :-) …I know they’re all in my blogroll but this is my special Thank You to everyone :-) … Here's to you....all...

Besides Rohan and Vipul who I knew before I got here (blogspot) and of course Suchi who as most of you are aware is my best friend (real & Virtual now!), one of the first friends I made here is Sudeep in whom I found a friend who could make me laugh and one who wouldn’t shy away from telling me things as is! No pretenses about him…he keeps it straight and simple and true! He will always be one of my fav bloggers!

Let me talk about three very special girls :-) …Yashita, Keshi and Kathy!!

I got to Yashita’s blog through Sudeep’s blogroll and amazingly reading through her posts had me agreeing with a lot of things she wrote about and I realized “hey she thinks and writes so much like me!”... I think the feeling is mutual :-) … It feels strange if she stays away from blogging too long! :-) So don’t ok yash?!

Keshi! Now what do I say about her?! :-) … By far one of the more popular bloggers. A girl who writes and tells it like it is! I was a silent reader of her posts in the past till one fine day I finally did comment. And I’m so glad I did! She’s one who reaches out to one and all…that’s a gift! We got better acquainted when we started keeping in touch thru emails. And now she’s a friend I cherish and without whom blogspot just can’t be the same….for me at least!

Kathy :-) … She’s the sweetest friend and puts up the most touching posts. In her first mail she sent me a song which I simply love and listen to almost every day…thanks dear :-) …. A mommy just like me to a very cute and pretty daughter (I luv her pics) … I found a dear friend in her!

Some of the first few comments (besides the anonymous ones!) were from Rupen (Illusions) and his comments encouraged me and gave me a lot more confidence in my own writings…esp. the poems. Thanks Rupen!

Arz000n with his incredibly crazy sense of humor made me laugh through many afternoons and continues to do so of course! I saw a sensitive side to him too in his comments in my posts related to love. He was also among the first few to comment here :-)…!

Puneet’s blog was one I would visit regularly…his posts made very interesting reads and he had a simple and humorous approach in his writing which I think is the reason why his blog was very popular and had many going back on a regular basis. Post marriage, Puneet’s more or less abandoned his blog :-( … with the promise of coming back again sometime...however so far that “sometime” seems to be stretching out forever!

There was yet another guy… Jackal …who would put up interesting posts on a wide variety of topics and get us thinking :-). Jack’s not been blogging for quite a while now and the last post just said he was busy. That was back in June. I can’t help but wonder and worry about why he’s silent for so long? He was encouraging and always there before he disappeared, which is why it’s all the more worrying to not know what happened?

And yes, JD… luvwannabefree …although I get to his blog knowing I could end up crying, I try to never miss a post. He writes the most amazing poems and for the most beautiful reason…love :-) … his is a story that touches my heart and soul…he is someone I remember in my prayers…! Sadly, he too takes long breaks….

I’ve got some of my blogging friends on chat too… John (Me ™) who helped me find this new template, Jitendra (who I met in my last visit to IndiaTimes chat) and recently Rajbir (southpaw) whose life makes the most extraordinary real life story I have ever heard about! I chat with them thru the weekdays. There are others who I haven’t talked to in a while but sometimes pop a “hello” or “hi” too but whose blogs I do get to @ Harjee, Shady. Thanks guys for being there :-)

And yes, in the past months I have met a lot of interesting bloggers who I visit regularly and who come here often too,…thank you for the support and for sharing your thoughts guys….You make my space all the more special:-) …

Special thanks to…gangadhar, jewel rays (amy), cinderella, neha, th3fac3smash3r (Abhinav), switchblade (Royston), the light-house (Tarun), theindividualist, has to be me, karmic_jay, starry nights (Lalitha), Ekta and Anand, sudarshan, s0ulasylum, meg, uttara, scribblez (Dhwanii), het, priya, rohit, sayan, kuan gung, Mumbai guy, harry, vikas kaul, velu, dawn, vaibhav, dewdrop, dadoji, burfi, arnold, alex….

Some others who have abandoned their blogs (besides vipul, rohan, puneet & jack)… SS, freaky chakra, raj, abhi and I can't miss out on mentioning kkalpz (why don't u have a blog?)… thanks for sharing part of your journey with me!

Thanks to the anonymous and ghost readers…some who left a comment once in a while but never revealed themselves :-)

And of course Last but not the least, R for being very patient when I spent long hours on the pc even when he was around and taking care of Vedant (Favorite subject of a lot of my posts!!) so that I could get done with a post! Or surf around blogs :-)

And having said all this…I continue my journey here…making friends along the way…smiling in your joys and sharing in your pain…forming unspoken deep bonds…and then again deeply missing the ones who left with and without a trace…

The music playing is “Lean on me” by Various Artists (Kirk Franklin, R.Kelly, Mary J Blige, Crystal Lewis, Bono). Lines from the song esp. for all you special people :-)

“I'll be there in a hurry when you call
Friends are there to catch you when you fall
I'm your friend and I'll catch you when, when, when you fall
Here's my shoulder, you can lean on me
Here's my shoulder, you can lean on me”

Ps: links to all the special mentions are in my blogroll :-)!!! And the new look is here to stay..it's my birthday gift to my blog!!!...Love it .. Hate it... You gotta live with it!! ;-) And of course the birthday post had to be the longestttt one everrrr in my space :-). Have fun pPl..Keep smilingggggggggg!And in your comments, do mention one positive:-) and one negative:-( thing about me AND my blog…that is a must!!! oKKkkk!

The switch to the beta version is making it tough for me to comment on blogs...ppl if u use moderation, please keep the option of others/anonymous open till all this mess is sorted out!!!

Sharing my smile....:-)

You guys know I was feeling low the past couple of days but now things are better and the weekend's here so I will be busy with stuff at home:-)...I wanted to put up a song here from the movie "Jhankaar Beats" that I quite enjoy! It makes me smile :-) and dance...and I want to share my smile with you! Because you shared my sorrow with me...

Have a beautiful and happy weekend everyone:)...keep smiling! :-)

I'm not too sure if this will work. It won't auto play, so press play to hear the song and do stop Nelly's video "promiscuous" in my side bar/menu for a short while to enjoy this:-)!


FreeVideoCoding.com

"Tera Muskurana Phir Has Ke Paas Aana
Mujhe Apna naam Batana
Phir Pal Mein Gum Ho Jana
Ehsaas Hai Abhi Us Pehli Baar Ka
Kaisa Yeh Nasha Hai Tere Pyaar Ka

Dil Se Dil Mile The
Jaise Do Phool Khile The
Tab Maine Kuch Kaha Tha
Tumhare Hot Sile The
Mujhe Yaad Hai Who Lamha Intezar Ka
Kaisa Yeh Nasha Hai Tere Pyaar Ka

Chand Chehra Hai Tera
Raat Zulfein Hai Teri
Yeh Hawa Teri Khushboo Hai
Yeh Samundar Ki Lehre
Tere Hasne Ki Dhun Hai
Duniyan Mei Bas Tu Hai

Tu Paas Hai To Saas Hai
Khazaana Hai Dil Ke Karar Ka
Kaisa Yeh Nasha Hai Tere Pyaar Ka
Kaisa Yeh Nasha Hai Tere Pyaar Ka

Raat Thehri Hai Lekin
Teri Aankhon Ke Aage
Bas Shaam Si Yeh Lagti Hai
Din Suhana Agar Hai To Tera Naam Leke
Tere Pyaar Se Fiza Mehekti Hai

Aage Hashar Kya Hoga
Agar Asar Hai Yeh Ek Didar Ka
Kaisa Yeh Nasha Hai Tere Pyaar Ka
Tera Muskurana Phir Has Ke Paas Aana
Mujhe Apna naam Batana
Phir Pal Mein Gum Ho Jana
Kaisa Yeh Nasha Hai Tere Pyaar Ka
Tere Pyaar Ka Tere Pyaar Ka..."

Ps: the link could be slow...! Patience...let it load ok?! And for the non hindi ppl, just enjoy the music:-)...

Venting Out!

Doing this totally without thinking...or maybe thinking too much...whatever! I need a break and so I’ll be blog hopping and make up for missing out all your posts! First the weekend kept me busy, then just when I got the last post up…I was without a proper net connection for a while…anyway, all that’s sorted out but I seriously don’t want to write for sometime. At least till I find myself out of this rather sick frame of mind…hate feeling sorry for myself and being all upset…Below is a rather pathetic attempt to vent out some of my frustration in the form of a poem (or as Sudeep would like to call it...an essay!?!)...you can skip it and move to the next blog or my last post (which had me in a better frame of mind!)

Dedicated to a friend...

"Don’t take me for granted…
I honestly am no angel
I stand by you no matter what…
I look past your mistakes
I don’t show my pain
But…That won’t last…
You’re oblivious to the
Changes in me…

Wake up
You need to see….
Before it’s too late
For you to change things
And we’re left
Cursing fate…

What else?
I’m always there for you
And no I didn’t expect
Anything in return…
Being friends, for me,
Was never about give
And take…
I did my fair share of giving…
And I’d do it all over again
If…I can get past this hurt…
You really don’t see it
Do you?

Wake up
You need to see….
Before it’s too late
For you to change things
And we’re left
Cursing fate…

You probably think it’s a trivial thing
Why cry over something
So small and insignificant
But hey…
Aren’t you the one always saying
"It’s the little things in life that matter"?
Why should things always be,
About you?
Small yes…but important no less…

Wake up
You need to see….
Before it’s too late
For you to change things
And we’re left
Cursing fate…

You know what’s funny?
You don’t even know
I’m hurt…
Right now you’re upset
Wondering why I
Find it tough
To make a simple call?
You think I’m
Taking you for granted…
That’s how it is right?
You never did sense my
Disappointment…
And that…yes,
That hurts even more…

Wake up
You need to see….
Before it’s too late
For you to change things
And we’re left
Cursing fate…

And I’m done with this!
Shit poem I know…
Had to let of steam
And that’s done…
Read it…chuck it
And go have some fun!"

No comments!!!! something tells me I might be deleting this post sometime in the future...:-(

Ps: The music is the same as last time @ “promiscuous by Nelly Furtado”…it’s kind of stuck in my head now!

Have a good week ahead…wishing everyone finds a reason to smile and share that with people who matter and care…!

DaNcIng AwAyYy :-)

Been a while since I updated here…a while by my standard that is :-)! 4 days!

First the Saturday presentation went of fine! Phew! Thanks for all your wishes and for boosting my confidence!!! YAY!! :-)

It was a rather hectic day because we had to drop Vedant for his presentation at 9am, and then rush to his school for the PTM (parent teacher’s meeting) which we couldn’t make it to eventually because believe it or not, it poured here!!! And that led to crazy traffic snarls. At one traffic crossing, it took us 40 minutes! Halfway through we realized we couldn’t get to school and make it back on time to pick up Vedant, so we turned back.

Vedant had a great time on stage and in the audience too watching the performances of other kids! We came home for lunch and then went back again to the same venue (it’s roughly a 40 minute drive) at 5pm for my presentation. It started late because many were held up because of the rains! But the wait was worth it…there were 50 performances…and some special performances by underprivileged children, physically challenged kids and a batch of parents! The icing on the cake was the performances by our instructors and also the students selected to be imparted special training!

Of course watching the other “beginners” groups performing was a delight too! I can’t say how we did. I guess we did fine…ummm…I never got a chance to get any kind of feedback in all the excitement! :-) And no videos or pics….those who tried to capture the action on their mobiles were asked to delete it! Hmmmm! :-( I didn’t keep my phone with me. Lol Rajiv says I would definitely lose it in the crowd…I’ve been pretty unlucky with my phones in the past!!!

And yes Vedant and I signed up for the next level too and classes will begin on 25th September.

There was talk of a trip to the US next month to visit my brother. R is going on a business trip and I was to tag along. But sadly getting a visa at such short notice is proving extremely tough! I am disappointed…extremely disappointed! But again to quote Sudeep in his last post “there are two sides to every story”…well, in this case, we were leaving Vedant behind and that had me worrying, so now that won’t happen! And ummm, to make up for this disappointment, we’re planning a family vacation during Vedant’s diwali break in the last week of October!

Where? Not sure yet…toying with many options. It’s peak season almost everywhere and so that makes it a little difficult to pick a destination that’s going to be fun and affordable! Since we’ll be traveling with Vedant, I really don’t want to rough it out in anyway…everything has to be perfectly planned! Although, we’re looking at places out of India too…but somehow I have my heart set on Goa again! Not just because I’ve been there and liked the place but because I went there without Vedant and every time he sees the pics he keeps asking me “why am I not there mummy?” …. *sigh*

Pics of the Resort we stayed at...Old Anchor, Goa Nov 2005

Okkk… this kid has a long life…gotta go make him some sandwiches…he’s jumping all around me chanting “sandwich…sandwich…sandwich”…. Blanking out any other thing that I might have wanted to write about!!!!

Oh yes…I was wrong about my blog birthday date…its 11th September and not 9th! Can’t think of anything special to do…just happy knowing being here has been the best experience ever! And YOU all are the BEST!!!

Ps: The music playing is “Promiscuous” by Nelly Furtado. Enjoy ;-)!!!