Life's lessons...

I put up that last post to feel good. I wanted a reason to feel good. Nah don't worry...life's going along just fine. Something upset me a real lot. But life's like that...I can't do much to change that something. What's happened has happened is what I keep telling myself. And no one can question fate right? Death when it comes....comes with so much finality...

Though I can't go back in time and change things. I've learnt yet another lesson...one that I hope I will not forget.

When I lost my grandma many years ago, I realized how important it is to say sorry before it's too late when we're wrong or when we hurt someone...coz I lost her before I could say that.

And now...when I heard of a close friend I lost touch with and the tragic circumstances of her life in the past months, I realized how I could've been there to help her deal with it all...simply by keeping in touch. But I didn't....I just moved on and so did she I guess...

Well meaning friends around me tell me that's how life is and although I know they're right, I keep telling myself..."Must I get so involved in my life that I lose track of everyone else?"...

One single line in her sms two nights ago...."I want you back in my life..." shook me up...tears (like I told a good friend earlier in the day) come so easily to me....but this line just numbed my senses...

I never question God...The Almighty...I believe He/She has a plan for all of us and tell myself everything good or bad happens for the better BUT at times like these...I find myself questioning WHY? WHY? WHY??? ... I know there are no answers to this... there never will be one that will give me peace of mind...

Months ago, I read a poem that I had put up here...but there u see, you only learn when you live through it...putting it up here again to remind us all...

"Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell
And he rang mine if, we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim"
"Just to show that I'm thinking of him"
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows
Around the corner! Yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir, Jim died today"
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love or like someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it
Is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly,
Stay close to your friends and family,
For they have helped make you
The person that you are today..."

The music playing is "If tomorrow never comes..." by Ronan Keating.