Got here with the specific purpose of surfing blogs! Read a few...yet to comment though. The pic here on the left is one of my favorite Goa pics (took it while on the boat ride on Mandowi River)...it's nice isn't it? :-) Rajiv and a friend who’s staying with us for a few days are watching the movie “Lage Raho Munna Bhai” on cable. I like the movie too but I can’t sit through repeats...I can watch some scenes or songs that I like but not the entire movie. Sometimes when I’m working here on the pc, I put on a movie and watch a few scenes...but mostly I have music playing and the kind of music I play reflects the way I am feeling right then....
Guess that’s how it is with most of us...
I seem to have given the impression that I’m leaving blogging...or at least got one foot out of blogosphere? Well, that’s not the way it is...I’m here now right? :-) ... don’t wish me Good Bye yet....
There’s some confusion here at home about sending Vedant to school tomorrow. There’s a call for yet another “bandh” against the sealing drive. One trader attempted suicide today fearing that his shop would be sealed and he would be left with no source of income. It’s a tough time for a large segment of Delhi’s population and part of me agrees that the law has to be followed....but there is a part of me really unable to comprehend why no one (= Government) is coming up with some kind of solution...alternate arrangements? I’ve heard endless debates on TV and even the least interested person must have seen the mess Delhi was in last week! If everyone knows the “ifs” and the “whys” then why can’t they come up with an answer to “what next?”...is what I just don’t understand!??!
Now the bandh call was announced on TV just a little while ago but Vedant’s school doesn’t fall in Delhi but a neighboring city (we live near the border) so his school is on...and I’d hate to have him miss anymore school! But last week when he got stuck in school and I couldn’t go get him because our area was where all the mess and chaos happened(people broke / burnt buses) ... I couldn’t get out of the house to get him! Rajiv drove all the way from Gurgaon to Noida to get Vedant but they couldn’t get home to me! I swear it was one of the most frustrating days of my life...I was constantly on the phone worrying about both of them! Just don't want to live through another nightmare like that...
*sigh* ... moving on... the other day I was chatting with a friend :-) and I mentioned to him that I had a very restless feeling....like something was going to happen....kuch toh hoga... or something should happen? And usually when I get such feelings, something or the other does happen! Do you get that feeling? Just asking coz I get many people telling me “ohh yaa....I know what you mean!”
I don’t know but sometimes that feeling freaks me out! Esp. when later something does happen....hmmmmm...like it did the other day....
I’m rambling away huh? Haven’t done so in quite a while soooo...chalega if I just go on right?:p
No I won’t go on and on....just one last thing...I made this solemn promise to myself that I would not blurt out stuff about myself...any issues or problems I might face...I mean not to anyone I don’t know really well...or rather anyone who doesn’t know me very well...
I’ve seen how in the past, in moments of weakness and confusion, I might’ve confided in friends...and some do understand but there are always those who ... hmmm... take advantage of even our worst moments... I know we get to know our true friends in times of trouble and all that jazz...but I’m not sure if I learnt much from that experience!
Some times I just find myself trusting some one ... I don’t set any parameters or conditions, I just trust. Later, I’m left wondering.... did I do the right thing? Worse than that is the feeling (that voice in my head that goes) “Oh good lord, how can u trust someone first Ishi...and then doubt them??”
Hmmmm.... with all this in my head, I’m off to bed! Poor me...it’s going to be a long night....
Oh yes...Thanks suchi for the book :-)....did u guess I’d be having restless nights? Coz u know nothing relaxes me as much as reading a book late night when everyone’s asleep and there’s silence all around...u’re the best ever!
One more Goa pic before I sign out....G'nite all...
Ps: The music playing is "I still haven't found what I'm looking for" by U2 ...
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