Not every day is the same....

It's a new day :-) ... and I got my smile back...

U know a lot of guys tell me pink puts them off...pink is too feminine...yeah so?? :p ... I love it! In the pic here u'll see enough proof of that :-)

While on "pink" I also luvv strawberries...esp. strawberry ice cream...mmmmmmmm:)...and top it with strawberry crush...*sigh* blisss....!!!

Tomorrow, early morning, I leave for Mumbai. Too early if u ask me :( ... I'll probably have to leave the house at 3:30 am!!! And to make matters worse, the infamous Delhi fog (smog!) is back and it's terribly cold also. So yes the chances of a long wait at the airport are high!

But the thought of warmer climate in Mumbai is the silver lining in this cloud...I did pack quite a few warm clothes though...lol...I just can't seem to get it into my head that it just won't be cold there!! hmmmm!! More so when I'm sitting here typing this post out in this cold room and taking time out to sit on my hands :p .. he he..

I've been very negative and upset in the past couple of posts and yes not without any reason. But like the post title says "Not every day is the same..." and Thank God for that! Coz I was upset enough to want to quit blogging...which as people really close to me would know has been the best thing to have happened to me so far! And...will continue to be....

On that positive note, I wanna just say thank you for being there and putting up with the totally crazy (but justified) mood swings...like I said, sometimes it's just enough to hear someone say they care....they understand...! That makes all the difference...

I've already wished you all, haven't I :-)? Have a Lovely Christmas and Happy New Year:-)!

We had the church carol singers at home last night...and while we prayed...for loved ones, friends and family...I said a lil prayer for all of you...God bless...

Ps: Since I'm all smiles and happy...wanna share this song from Dhoom 2 (No I haven't seen the movie yet and I guess at this rate I never will!!!)...Have a blast this New Years ppl!!! Dhoom machaa le :p

Oh btw the song playing in the sidebar is also a favorite "While my guitar gently weeps" by The Beatles :)...enjoy!

I, Me, Myself

I want to write and just be myself....I want to express every single feeling...write from my heart and soul...write for myself...but....

Tell me have you ever taken a really hard look at yourself and tried to evaluate the kind of person you think you are....the kind of person people view u as and what you really are?

I did...

I’d like to think I am everything that people make me out to be...a happy wife and doting mother...sensible, practical...optimistic...always churning out the right things to say! But I am not...I have a lot of growing up to do myself. And suddenly, everything seems so shallow...I find myself a person with conflicting emotions. A person who sometimes doesn’t live up to her words...who sometimes takes people around her for granted.

Selfish? Yes...selfish.

Hypocrite? Yes... Sometimes...I am such a hypocrite! I don’t need someone close to tell me that....I think I can see myself clearly...thank you. I change my mind...not coz of any whim and fancy. I do so coz I think...yes I think! Can I live in isolation and not take into account how my decision(s) and action(s) affect the people around me? So if today I may believe in one thing....as right. Then tomorrow I could change my mind!! And I do!!!!

Too many things playing on my mind...too many things upsetting me!

My last post created sum confusion in many of you. I don’t want to blog...PERIOD. But I am not stupid and know that I can’t predict the future and chances are that some day in the future I may want to just write...for myself! Hope that clears the confusion...

On a more positive note, It’s been overwhelming to see your comments...u guys make my day :-)

Looking forward to the 2 week holiday...to just get my mind off all this negativity.

I just changed the song in my side bar today morning...but here’s one more classic rock song... “Lying eyes....” by Eagles! Enjoy....

City girls just seem to find out early
How to open doors with just a smile
A rich old man
And she won't have to worry
She'll dress up all in lace and go in style

Late at night a big old house gets lonely
I guess ev'ry form of refuge has its price
And it breaks her heart to think her love is
Only given to a man with hands as cold as ice

So she tells him she must go out for the evening
To comfort an old friend who's feelin' down
But he knows where she's goin' as she's leavin'
She is headed for the cheatin' side of town

You can't hide your lyin' eyes
And your smile is a thin disguise
I thought by now you'd realize
There ain't no way to hide your lyin eyes

On the other side of town a boy is waiting
with fiery eyes and dreams no one could steal
She drives on through the night anticipating
'Cause he makes her feel the way she used to feel

She rushes to his arms,
They fall together
She whispers that it's only for awhile
She swears that soon she'll be comin' back forever
She pulls away and leaves him with a smile

You can't hide your lyin' eyes
And your smile is a thin disguise
I thought by now you'd realize
There ain't no way to hide you lyin' eyes

She gets up and pours herself a strong one
And stares out at the stars up in the sky
Another night, it's gonna be a long one
She draws the shade and hangs her head to cry

She wonders how it ever got this crazy
She thinks about a boy she knew in school
Did she get tired or did she just get lazy?
She's so far gone she feels just like a fool

My, oh my, you sure know how to arrange things
You set it up so well, so carefully
Ain't it funny how your new life didn't change things
You're still the same old girl you used to be

You can't hide your lyin eyes
And your smile is a thin disguise
I thought by now you'd realize
There ain't no way to hide your lyin' eyes
There ain't no way to hide your lyin' eyes
Honey, you can't hide your lyin' eyes

ishita's space...."The walk ends" :-)

When I started blogging almost a year and half back...in Sept 2005...I didn't think I'd be blogging so voraciously!!! :p Thinking up a name for my blog took me quite sometime but at the time I wasn't sure if I was going to be doing this on a regular basis or what exactly I wanted to blog about...I just had a few poems that I'd scribbled and that's what I started with. The first ever poem I attempted was called "A walk down that old familiar lane..." and that became part of my blog title. I hold that poem close to my heart because it was my first ever:-)...

A walk down that old familiar lane
Revisiting pain
Never thought I’d live through it again...

Left with empty words
Happy and aching memories
Time seems to stand still
No one left to love...to please...

Remembering lines from a song.
We once danced to
Your smile as u whispered,
I love you…
Tears...now...fears...
Of facing a world without you

Too late...to change what could have been
Should have been
Left alone to face a fate
I’d never seen...

Nuthin’...eases this pain
I’ll survive I know
Yet again
Just another walk down that old familiar lane...

Well, the walk down this lane @ blogosphere has not been familiar at all!!!! It's been so completely new...fascinating...fulfilling....and a learning experience for me. It's been time well spent and a time I know I will cherish and love. Along this walk, I've come across some wonderful people and made some close and precious friends. I never thought blogging would open up a whole new world and bring into my life friends like these....and for that I am grateful for that fateful day that I first put up a post here...in what has come to be my space....Ishita's space :-)

Last New Year's @ 2006 I put up a post (Read here) talking about my resolutions for the coming year. They're meant to be broken right ;p .... but I did fulfill some of them you know :) I said I needed to get sum kind of exercise...maybe join a gym or sumthin. I didn't join a gym but I did take up dancing and not only did it help shed sum weight, it was also a whole lot of fun! I said I would learn to cook and I did pick up quite a bit :-) ... the one thing we didn't do is convert this room where my precious PC is into a kiddie room. But we did shift all of Vedant's toys here which ensured he spent a lot of his time playing here :-)....so this last resolution is what I need to fulfill this coming year! I do have some more to fulfill but this post is not about my New Year resolutions :)

Hmmmm....this post is to talk about what blogging has come to mean to me....my walk and my memories of this past year and a half.

The time has come, I feel, to rest a while...

Life is not predictable or definite. Things keep changing constantly...So like everything else in life....even Good Bye's are never forever! I have no intention of calling it quits from blogosphere but yes I do intend to put a pause here...in my space... ishita's space..."A walk down that old familiar lane" and my other blogs pOeMs 'n' QuOtEs and My pics ...while I concentrate on other aspects of my life...

I will be here though...going thru all ur blogs....saying hi and leaving comments :-) ... I can't do without that you know!

Last but not the least...Here's wishing YOU ALL a MERRRYYYYY CHRISTMAS and the BEST EVER NEW YEAR!!! :-)ENJOYYYY!!!!

The music playing "That's what friends are for" is a special dedication to the wonderful friends I have made here and to the friends who have stood by me in my life...I love you all...*huggsss*

Ps: I will put up a post of my mumbai trip...esp. about meeting blog frenz:-)...if they don't do that in their blogs!:-)...just hopin & prayin that my flight doesn't get reallyyy delayed or worse still cancelled (coz of the bad fog situation in Delhi airport!) *sigh*

Edit: Also changed the music playing in my side bar to an old fav "agar tum na hote" from the movie of the same name (read movie review here) ... sadly my fav lines from the song are not in the video ...

"Na jaane kyoon dil se ye aawaz aayi
Milan se hai badhke tumhaari judaai
In aankhon ke aansoo, na kehlaate moti
Agar tum na hote, agar tum na hote...."

Between Friends...

Spending winter afternoons doing what I love to do best.....!! Lazing around :p

But today I had sumone with me :-)...Suchi! Of course we meet up ever so often but this isn't like every other day coz it's in the middle of the week and on a day when she'd usually be working! :-) ... what did we do? Nothing special...had some home cooked lunch...and caught up with orkut scraps...ate John's head (on chat :p)! Yesterday I was his "amma" and today he found his aunt in Suchi :p...he he! Oh but he was serious this time...............he meant she resembled an aunt of his :-)!!!

Why is she home today...the poor girl's got fever! Delhi chill catchin up with everyone.

In a bit R will be home and we're gonna talk party (rem 16th's the date ppl!)...and maybe (I'm hopingggg) we get to catch Dhoom 2 finally...still haven't seen it when I think the whole world's seen it already!!!!!!!

What else? It's wedding season here and suchi's tellin me there are 30,000 weddings scheduled for tomorrow!! Whoa.....! One small secret about me...I once gate crashed a wedding when I was a kid :p ... food was yummmyyy ... lolz..

More laterzzz....maybe a longer post before the weekend's thru! Have fun ppl....keep smiling:-)

Ps: The music playing is "yeh dosti hum nahi todenge" from the all time hindi classic Sholay!!! Dedicated to our friendship!!!! :-) and if u're wondering...lemme tell u if we were to be one of the two i.e. Amitabh and Dharmendra...Suchi wld be Amitabh and I'd be Dharmendra!!! :D

Update: Here's wishing a very dear friend "KALPANA" a very HAPPPY BIRTHDAY (13th Dec)...Hopin u have the best day ever and a wunderful year ahead :-)....can't wait to meet you in mumbaiiiiii!!!! I'm sooo excitedd! *huggsss*

Crazy Kiya Re!....

The pic here was taken on the evening of R's office Annual Dinner...which is why the formal sari etc etc :-) ... John this is coz u kept chanting amma....I was all set to put up a diff pic but *grin*!!! :p

I don't have anything specific to blog about. Not much has been happening and I've been keeping myself busy with Christmas shopping for the family...which is over and done with! This weekend I'll be preparing for the party next weekend!! and then finally packinggg to go....to Mumbai!

Wanna share a song here....(hindi!)....from the movie "Satte pe Satta" - a movie based on the english movie "Seven brides for seven brothers" which was a popular musical. I like couple of songs from this Amitabh and Hema starrer but the one I'm putting up here has some fond memories attached to it :-)...

Back in school, a good friend broke off with her then boyfriend and I remember this guy sitting with his friends outside where we would all hang out in the evenings, singing this song whenever she passed by :-) ... it irritated her back then but I'm sure hearing it hear in my blog after all these years is gonna have her grinning away....just as I am! :-)))

Enjoy... !

The song is about these brothers talkin (oopss...singing) about what being in love has made of them!!! lolz....if u understand the language...it's a funny song and situation....! Eventually they come up with this crazy idea of kidnapping all the girls they're in luv wid respectively and bringing them home...ha ha...

Anyway, more laterzz... I'm off to be with Vedant and a movie he wants to watch:-) ... bye all! Have a great weekend.....*huggsss*

ps: the post title..? jlt....cldn't think of one :p

Countdown To Christmas...

The countdown to CHRISTMAS starts today! YAY!...!!!

There's something about this season that gets me all excited :-) and I guess I am not the only one right?! I have this cute cloth calender Rajiv got for us last year which has a tree sewn on it and lil buttons to hang up decorations...it starts the christmas countdown from today! Vedant luvs to put up the lil decorative pieces...one on each day:-)...

And of course we have the party on 16th...aah I wish I could've have all you wonderful people here to celebrate this day with us! It's a whole lot of fun and frolic with friends and family...I'm still getting done with the invites and settling the details. The theme is "Christmas" of course....the colors to wear are RED, GOLD and GREEN and lotsa shimmering accesories!!! Can't wait....:))

And not to forget food....! Yummmyyy! I have to bake the christmas cake...I do that every year and lots of it ok. We never buy the cake(s) from the market/pastry shop. And once I start with the Christmas cake, I end up baking my now famous (*not bein modest at all :p*) chocolate cake and the vanilla and jam cake Vedant luvs! I don't cook much but bake I do....:-)

And since the party is a pool in one...I look forward to sampling the dishes other will get:-).

But what's the best thing about this season??? SHOPPINGGG for gifts of course! I don't like getting my gifts wrapped up at the store...I like doing that myself at home:-)! It's the season for giving and sharing...not just gifts but a whole lot of love and caring :-) ...

But that's something I still have to get started with...oh well I do have 3 weeks (almost) to get done with that....plus I have to take out time on the party weekend to pack my stuff for the mumbai trip...

Guess you can sense all the excitement in me??? *grin* but hey I also wanted to write the post to show off these lovely X-mas pics....cute aren't they :-)?

I spend my mornings surfing through blogs .. today morning I read Keshi's post ...which is about Christmas too...:)...luvd it!!

The music playing is by Cliff Richards..."Chestnuts roasting on an open fire....." The Christmas Song...Enjoy!