2006-01-30

Excited:-)!!!

Hmmmm:-) I have reasons to smile! I'm off to mumbai in less than two weeks. It's for a few days only but it's going to be exciting and fun:-)!!! One of my closest friend there has met that "sumone special" and they're all set to take it to the next level...yep..I'm going for her wedding:-) and I'm soo soooo sooooo happy for her!!... It's been a tumultuous relationship...like a proper roller coaster ride....UPs and DOWNs...but they got this far and I've got my fingers crossed...this feels like a good thing...! I didn't think I'd be heading back to mumbai so soon considering that I made my first everrr trip just last year. Infact all this is so sudden...just this friday Rajiv and I were debating if I could go or not...we have to think of Vedant...and R can't take leave right away etc etc....BUT he said what the hell...she's ur best fren...u have to go:-)! And we were lucky coz I got confirmed ticktets!yipppieee!!! Now I can't wait for the 10th..that's when I'll be leaving:-)

Below is a poem I'd written for her...at one point of time I thought she was moving to fast into this..we fought and then we made up...I wrote this around that time. We would be in touch constantly via fone calls/chat...soooo when she was smiling...so was I...when she was in tears...so was I...hmmmmm...that's the way it is with friends...right? Like I tell her always..."U're in my prayers always! & I just want to see u happy always."... In fact last Valentines we were out together and she was cribbing big time...I hate being alone on Valentines...and this year:-) she's getting married!! And I really hope this works out well for her.

Love is...

"Love s unreal…nothing seems clear…
How can someone you met in days come to mean this much?
Love makes u happy…makes u sad…either ways…hurts so much…
How can all your priorities change in no time?
You want no one…need no one…
’Cept to be with him all the time!

I could tell you to wait a while…
Give it time…patience is all you need…
I know u’ll listen…u’ll agree…
To all I have to say but…
You’ll pay no heed…
Love is blind…
No reasoning or logic comes to mind!

I knowww he’s good for you…
I know he loves you…
I’ve never seen you happier…
Never seen you crazier…
I want this to work for you…
I want the two of you…
Together too…

So I set aside my doubts…my fears…
I’ve seen you live years in tears…
Now I want to see u smile…
Want to see your days filled with laughter…
I want to smile too as I watch…
You move into a new life…
Of shared happiness, love and here ever after :-)"
2006-01-27

Did U See The Parade???

Well did u??...coz we missed the Republic Day Parade!! No cable! I luvv watching the parade and I don’t think I’ve missed watching it in the past years…I felt worse for Vedant (my son!) coz he was realllyyyy looking forward to watching it. He’d been asking me about the parade for the past one week. Well…we didn’t have cable the entire day…first the net went off, and then the cable…it seems like some kind of weird conspiracy!

The wedding (we were at one last nite) was nice…it was a Nikaah ceremony and the first I’d ever been to. I had a nice time and we got home really late…my mama was to be there at the wedding but his train was late by like 12 hours (The Rajdhani!) coz of the Naxal bombings in Bihar. And he landed up at the wedding venue after the whole ceremony was done and over with. He’s came back home with us and will leave today. In a previous post I mentioned my mom’s ancestral home (my mama's place)…well, mamu told me last night that he’s been renovating the place and planning to promote it as a kind of tourist get away. It got me very excited and I really hope he gets to fulfill this dream project and I for one am definitely planning a trip there this year…he mentioned that besides doing up the old buildings…he’s planted 1000 teak trees and mango trees…I think that’s wonderful! And yep…banana trees too. Told me that the elephants come right up to the banana plantations…wow! Sooo my next trip will surely be to my mama’s place and I can’t wait to start planning that ASAP!

I was bored on 25th…bored and upset about sum stuff so wrote the following post to get myself into a better frame of mind…couldn’t post it then coz no net %$#@!!!!! Anyway just posting it now…nuthin special…my usual ramblings… (Again!)…

25th January 2005 "Salaam Namaste"

I got done with the last post “The Perfect Lover Tag” yesterday and if u missed commenting on that, please skip this and get done with that first!! I wasn’t planning on writing anything more this week. Tomorrow being the 26th, Rajiv and Vedant will be home and there’s a wedding we have to go. Today’s the Mehendi but I doubt if we can make it to that. Well, I can’t get online today coz my net’s gone…I called my service provider & told him “nahi chal raha net”…he gives me his standard reply “connector check karo!”…ufff…anyway, turns out there’s sum major problem somewhere and he calls back to give me the realllyyyy good news “raat tak dekhte hai…kal pukka chalega!”…damn…

Anyway, I was feeling lousy for other reasons too but then trying to take up on some good advice I thot of lazing around and just rest before I made the final decision of whether to go or not go for the Mehendi tonight. Vedant was with Woody wood pecker on Pogo and I wanted to watch a movie….any movie…so I went upstairs to put on a cd. “Salaam Namaste” caught my eye coz though we got this cd ages back…it still lay there in its original packing…plastic cover n all! I’d dragged Rajiv with me to watch this movie in the theatre…caught the 10:30 show…I quite enjoyed it.

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My fav bit is of course when Preity Zinta has that craving for chocolate ice cream!! I see myself in that scene coz I was just as crazy when I was pregnant with Vedant…I’d crave for the “All American banana Split” from Nirulas and….sometimes it wld be simplyyyyyy insane….I’d be like…I WANT IT RIGHT NOW!!!....poor Rajiv wld be like okkk…relaxxxx…will u! I’m like nooo abhi chahiye:-)!! I rem him driving me down to the nirulas...and talking to my maa in law…”u sure this is normal mamma?”…lolzz…and I could hear her on the other end, “usse jo chahiye do beta…don’t refuse anything!!”…lollzz…she’s sweet…

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And there at Nirulas I’d be sitting impatiently waiting for the guy to make the sundae…and I’d never share it…NEVER!...aahhh:-) the satisfaction I got…just savoring each spoonful of ice cream…mmmmmmmmm!!:-) Sooo when I see Preity Zinta with that expression on her face…I knowww!! I know exactly what it feels like!

The flip side is her dancing in her 7-8 odd months pregnant state all over the place…now that I just can’t digest…esp. looking at her huge tummy! I was pretty huge too at that stage of my pregnancy … to quote my doc “I’ve never seen a first time mom put on weight like this! No way is this baby going to be a normal delivery!”…he he he!!!….welll, I couldn’t dream of dancing around…I couldn’t even see my feet when I looked down…lolzz…

Welll…there’s no purpose to this post….just sum pleasant memories surfaced into my mind while watching the movie and nothing seems to make me relax more than writing now:-)

Okkk…enough for now!! I have important things to worry about…like which sari to wear tomorrow…and which Jewellery to match with it!! (But honestly…wish I could go in my jeans!!)…be back later…tata…

Ps: Btw I gained 20 Kgs when I was pregnant! Now I lost all that over the past 2 years…so don’t let your mind visualize me in that state! I make a perfect candidate for “Before – after – and then – AFTER!”….if that makes any sense…I cld send my pics to VLCC or Personal Point…earn sum royalty!

I looked n looked for a pic of Pregnant Preity having the ice cream...but no luck :-(

2006-01-24

The Perfect Lover Tag!!!


My first tag ever…thanks to Vipul!! And I cannot comply with the rules (you have to list 8 points abt ur perfect lover, tag 8 people and post a comment on their blog telling them so)…coz I don have ppl to tag further! Sooo I’m going to leave this tag open for any and everybody who gets to my space…

Now the second rule says I have to specify the sex of the target…okkk…since I have no gay / les / bi tendencies…this tag will be male specific…My Perfect Lover! To tell u the truth I was having a fun time reading other blogs where people have worked on this tag and like I mentioned in
Puneet’s blog…I was actually sitting here and making a list of compatible ppl!!! Lolzz… and Vipul sweet thing that he is has actually left the field open for married women to apply (in his quest for a perfect lover)! Hmmmm!!!

Like I said again in
Puneet’s blog….in the real world u write one thing & u live another!! So here goes nuthin!

1...My perfect lover has to be incredibly (and innovatively) ROMANTIC … umm not just in a veryyyy emotionally way…I’m hinting at PASSIONATE here okkk!

2...He has to luvv food…to eat…to cook!! Someone who wouldn’t mind experimenting with world cuisine coz I’m quite a foodie myself…

3...I like guys who are sure of themselves…they know what they want, how they want…when they want…BUT I like a guy BETTER when they can guess what’s on my mind?!;)…and take care of what I want, how I want…and when I want!! (And puhleez u single minded ppl there this applies to everything in life!)

4...My perfect lover shud luvv to shop / bargain…for me…! No no lemme rephrase that he shud luvv to take me shopping…I’m one confused shopper so I guess the thing I’m getting at here is a guy who is PATIENT…and CARING …and man enough to show it!

5...Hmmmm….he shud share in the housework! And in raising kids! J … A RESPONSIBLE guy!

6...I like a guy who can let me be who I am…a guy who can grow with me…coz I sincerely believe relationships keep evolving…ppl keep changing…nothing is constant and forever and u gotta make it work…click…all the time. There’s no place for complacency…and taking things for granted…I luvv my individual space and he shud value and trust me enough to give me my own spaceJ as I wld give him his…

7...Okkk…now this one is what I call my action – reaction point. I am someone who when in luvv is completely in luvvv! Sooo I expect the same…from my lover…luvv me…just me…and have eyes for NO ONE else!!!

8...I like a guy who can make me smile…a guy who can make good conversation…I like a guy even more when I can share my silence with him…So a cool sense of humor, intelligence and understanding is what I look for…

And the 8 points are over…!!! Lolzz…. I wish I cld keep the field open like
Vipul …he he he…but welll : -) this is it….

I think that there are sum guys who have been visiting my blog who haven’t been tagged yet...but please ppl feel free to take this up…and I shall go ahead and tag few of them asap…

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  • 2006-01-23

    A Poem .... & random thotz...

    You feel the wind blow…
    You watch the water flow…
    In the moonlight,
    You take a step slow….

    You watch her back
    As she stands,
    Facing the stream
    You can’t see her face
    But you feel her hands,
    Warm….soft…
    You know this is real
    No longer a dream

    You feel the wind blow…
    You watch the water flow…
    In the moonlight,
    You feel your love grow…

    In her eyes you see
    The love she feels for you
    In her smile you see
    The happiness she gets from you
    In the silent dark night,
    In your heart
    A promise you make,
    To hold her close
    Never for a moment
    To be apart

    In your arms,
    She feels the wind blow…
    Watches the water flow…
    In the moonlight,
    You see her face glow…


    Okkk...I cldn't figure out a suitable title for the poem so just left it as it is. Isn't the weather wierd...it seemed to be warming up few days back and then again it got really coldd again. I get nice sunshine here...where the pc is. Down below...in front of our flat is the main lawn and I get to watch all the kids playing...the aunties gossiping...out in the sun. My son keeps running in and out of the house! I tell ppl around that I keep fit running after him! lolz...or better still when I have to carry him and walk thru markets n malls!...he's my all time weight loss program:-) ... and IT WORKS!

    Today's been a nice day so far...got to chat with my favourite ppl:-)...and yesterday my brother called...I called mom and even my mausi called all the way from Mongolia!! On saturday we were out at one of r's colleague's place for dinner...alongwith some other couples...got home late. This guy's wife has a nice business...she organises kid's parties in different themes :-) and I could see from the way she talked about her work that she luvvss what she does. I think it's really nice to know and do what u like...and what's more make decent money out of it! ... I luv organizing parties too but to do it professionally is a totally different scene. Everytime we have a big party at home... I end up promising I won't do this ever again!!! But...to have ppl call back the next day and tell u they had a gr8 time....there's nuthin better than that :-). We do the annual X-mas party...and of course my son's birthday in a grand way! Rest my birthday or r's are more family oriented. If people call and drop by, it's an added bonus :-). I remember one birthday when mom had this "chaat & golgappa" party...when I was in school...my frenz luvdd it! and we would always bake the cake at home...very rarely did we order a cake. But now for our son we order....coz try as might I can't make toy trains, simba the lion or....Pokemom cakes!! Last year we had a Kite :-)

    Hmmm...I guess now I'm just rambling...gotta go...make a call...
    2006-01-20

    Goa!!!

    Goa!!!…this post is 2 months late I know! We were in Goa in November. Writing about Goa isn’t easy esp. for me without wanting to pack my bags and go back! I’ve wanted to go to Goa for as long as I can remember!! Twice before trips to Goa were cancelled at the last moment…I don’t even recall why now…But well…this time I was just hell bent on making it…no matter what. I was getting kind of sick of always going to the hills for vacations and for just 2-3 days at a time…work not allowing more time off earlier.

    Ever since I quit my last job I got busy planning this trip…saved a decent amount of money but I luvvv a trip where I can get to have fun and save money! Since we were going to Mumbai after Goa (see post about Mumbai trip) for a wedding, there was a lot of stuff I had to carry. Lucky for me Suchi visited Delhi a week or two before I was leaving and I packed a suitcase for her to carry back to Mumbai. But despite that I can never travel light so we ended up carrying too much and using just half the stuff we carried! (u could read a previous post on Packing …it’s a poem!).

    Welll…I booked all my tickets two months in advance (remember I was taking no chances!) esp. with it being peak season and lucky for us my uncle had a time share scheme with Dalmia resorts so we got a decent package for their resort in south Goa (little did we know the difference between south and north and all the expense involved in commuting from one end to the other!!)…but we were happy with the deal…very economical and plus we heard it was near one of the more beautiful and secluded beaches…and trust me I wanted a quiet vacation….just the sun, sand, water and food…and wine! Okk beer too though I'm not a very beer person…

    We took the Trivandrum Rajdhani to Madgaon which is around 17 kms from where the resort is. Now for those who need to know, this Rajdhani is not like the regular Rajdhani’s … this one is like a regular long distance passenger train. There’s no restriction on waitlisted people getting on and the journey is long and tiring though I must say everyone seemed to be in a generally good mood and ready to party right from the time the train left Delhi!... we had kids traveling with us so the less said the better! (Not our kid btw…he stayed home with nana – nani!) I am very fond of traveling by train and I was realllyyyy looking forward to the Konkan Railway section, having heard a lot about the tunnels and the scenic beauty…well the tunnels didn’t disappoint but I didn’t quite find the scenery anything spectacular. I lived in the north east and traveled extensively there…I’ve seen amazing places in the northeast and parts of Konkan and Goa reminded me so much of the north east. But….yes once we reached Goa…the first view of the sea left me in awe.

    The minute we reached the resort after a short drive from the station…I was like let’s go to the beach right now. But of course we had to settle into our room first and after a shower we walked down to the beach (which was across the resort…a short walk through a nice shaded path) and I luvvd it…it was quiet…with a row of beach shacks and very few vendors. We took a walk and it was nice to note that there weren’t many people…mostly Russians and Europeans…and sum music played in the shacks… but nothing loud or blaring…we got back to the resort and had sum tea and snacks before taking another walk to check out nearby shopping areas…we found out that right beside our resort was a nice shopping complex and further ahead a mall (I’d call it mini mall after seeing the huge ones we have here in Delhi and most metros) and there was a little street market further down the road.

    South Goa is not as commercialized or crowded as North Goa is and fact is North Goa remains more popular with tourists as it is closer to most of the places one is likely to see in their first visit to Goa. South is where most of the bigger resorts and 5 star hotels are located...with some of the best beaches. Panjim was around 35 kms from where we were staying. The best way to travel and move around Goa is of course to hire a two wheeler…u can hire it for the entire duration of your stay…that’s more cost effective. But we didn’t do that…we used cabs which in Goa is just too expensive…but then Rajiv wasn’t keen on a bike. We did have one trip of north Goa inclusive in the package and also a boat ride on the Mandowi river which we covered on our second day in Goa…we got to see places like the Mangeshi temple and Basilica of Bom Jesus (where the body of St. Francis is), visited Panjim market and shopped for a lot of wine. We kept a stock of beer back in our room too. Alcohol is cheap…but then everyone knows that about Goa!

    Of course the bus driver took us for a ride in more ways than one…he took us to a store where we got wine and later discovered we’d paid them double of what the rates were! This by the way was still cheaper than what we’d pay here in Delhi.

    The following day we took a cab to Anjuna Beach where the flea market is. By this time I was beginning to realize all about distances in Goa. Anjuna is up north and it took us more than an hour and half to get there. Our cab driver was an old timer and he kept us entertained with a lot of facts…and trivia about Goa…we gossiped a lot and time passed by. Anjuna was disappointing…for me at least…Goa’s not a place to shop as such. Anjuna reminded me of Janpath in Delhi ‘cept this was Janpath at the beach! And a dirty beach at that! After our beach in south Goa, north beaches were disappointing and crowded. I never felt awkward in my bathing suit down south but north had me thinking twice…hmmm!

    Our cab driver took us to a place called Big Foot which I felt was a place kids would love to visit…that was also the time I missed my son the most! It’s a small museum kind of place which tries to depict life in Goa. It also has a story revolving around a stone shaped like a big foot…and legend has it that if u place your foot on it, your wishes come true. It also has the largest single rock carving found in India of Meera Bai. I picked up some lil trinkets there…ear rings and stuff like that.

    On our way back we went shopping at madgaon market and picked up more wine! Some of it was for friends and family…we got both local Goan port wine and branded wine. Port wine is nice but way too sweet.

    Evenings at the resort is when we got to do most of our socializing…there’s something about holidays which gets even strangers talking and wanting to know each other. The resort had few groups of vacationers, a lot of honeymooning couples and some foreign tourists. The evenings had different events…I liked the karaoke nite the most and we went to the disc a couple of times. Karaoke nite was fun coz of the people who were around…sadly few could carry a note but they had a good time attempting to sing though. That’s where I also discovered that Rajiv could actually sing very well (if he wanted to!)…he sang two songs and got a lot of appreciation for them and he was all set to sing a third but time had run outJ. Food at the resort was alright…I enjoyed breakfast most…I ate a lot while at Goa but then we spent the whole day moving around…big meals were justified!

    On our third night we met Karen and Gerry who we shared some nice meals and lovely memories with (see post on Karen & Gerry) and other interesting people we met included a guy from orissa on a conference tour, two families (two guys who were best frenz had come with their wives and kids)…one from Delhi and the other visiting from the states, a maharashtrian family and a group of very cute school kids from Mumbai. I spent a nice afternoon in the pool with these kids…now I don’t know how to swim and these lil girls (all of 12 years!) decided they would teach me swimming no matter what. We had a fun time chatting and sharing stories…with some of them handing out phone numbers and insisting we visit them in Mumbai!

    Our last night we had our dinner at the most popular beach shack near our resort and the food was simply yummy…and we spent the evening drinking on the beach…it was beautiful just watching the white waves…hearing them…in the dark…

    Leaving Goa was truly sad…coz’ it was better than what I had expected it to be…and I had a wonderful time there…that’s the effect Goa has on you. What’s interesting is that I had my brother and his family and my cousin and his wife visit Goa after we came back and each of them had their own stories about the Goa they experienced…but we all agree on one thing - Goa is beautiful and a place you can really have a lot of fun. I’m hoping I’ll go back again and this time I want to go with good friends and share the whole experience and do all the things I missed this time in Goa. Friends who took us around Mumbai told us they would ensure we had a completely different but just as exciting Goa trip next time and I can’t wait for that!!!

    Ps: First day at the beach I went in shorts and ended up feeling over dressed next to all the other Russian and European women in their bathing suits. Second day I got out my bathing suit and headed confidently to the beach. To my utter dismay…a whole family of gujjus (sweet people btw) were bathing in the water fully clothed!!! I ended up feeling awkward again!! I remember Gerry making a comment saying why don’t I see more Indian women around here in bathing suits like u?!! Welll…..

    Never got around to learning swimming! Can barely float L but got tanned like hell…I was 3 shades darker when I got to the wedding in Mumbai. I got hell from people there…what have u done to urself??! Loll…I rem buying a lot of bleach…to get back closer to my normal skin tone! Some people luvvd the tan though ;-)…but a good sun block is an absolute must in Goa!!

    Goa is famous for Feni (a drink made with cashew…or coconut), cashew nuts and something called Kokum (again made from coconut I think…used by my mom-in-law in fish curries) and like I said before alcohol is cheap :-) …

    Don’t carry too many clothes…trust me u won’t need much anyway!

    We didn’t experience any of the famous (infamous nite life) but then again…there’s always next time!!!!

    2006-01-13

    For my baby:-)


    luvvvv his smile :-) Posted by Picasa

    This one's for my son:-) and for the happiness he brings..

    "i luvv the look on his lil' face
    as i watch him race....
    and pulll open the fridge door
    all the while saying...
    mummyyy more more...

    ek aur cheese de do mummmyyy
    sirfff ek...fir bolna no no...
    i give up very easy...
    give the cheese saying...
    no more baba..now please go:-)

    i luvvv his smile...
    when he sees the camera...
    he'll fuss a while...
    then luk at me saying...
    lo naa foto mummyy mera:-)

    hmmmm...i luvv the way i am
    happy and glad...
    watching him...luvving him...
    with him around...
    i can't ever be sad:-)"
    2006-01-12

    Have a Garfield Day :-) !! Posted by Picasa

    okk...i have nuthin i wanna write about and m home alone wid my son nowdays soooo...that keeps me busy enough!! :-) ...
    2006-01-07

    welll....

    if u get here...intentionally or unintentionally...please go back in time (archives..."in d past") and read the poems...i could do with sum comments on those too...
    2006-01-06

    These are a few of my favorite things....

    Things that make me happy....!

    Watching my son play:-)

    When suchi and I sit and chat…

    When I hear good music…

    Hmmmm…and dig into good food:-)

    When I get a good book to read…

    Better still when I have the time to read!

    When my son gives me kisses of his own free will

    When I get a chance to be on long long drives…

    The sight of a squirrel outside my window…

    The sound of the lil bird chirping on my favorite tree…

    When I’ve cleaned my room and it looks real clean:-)

    A really good conversation…

    A hot cup of tea…

    Mmmmm:-) my favorite ice cream!

    Visits from my cousins…

    Weddings! Birthdays! Happy occasions…

    Festivals…

    Smiles…

    Phone calls…chat:-)…wid good friends

    Taking long walks…in solitude

    Splashing in water…

    Rains…

    Long e-mails…

    Last but not the least…Writing:-)

    Listing this out…makes me smile…I should remember this…when I feel sad about things…
    2006-01-05

    Make a difference

    31st Dec 2005 – After a rather enjoyable meal at Pizza Hut with R and Deepak (a close friend of ours), I left to pick up our son from the playpen on the top floor of the mall. Meanwhile, R & Deepak went out for a smoke. Going up the escalators, I noticed a lot of rush mainly coz of sum new years eve celebrations in the food court near the playpen.

    Young guys aged 20-24 odd years were moving down the escalator and here is what I wanted to write about – how completely unnerving a simple ride up the escalator can get when guys look at you and pass comments…simply because you are a woman! Fact is most women are used to looks and comments & there are instances where one feels good too (presuming the look is from someone we find interesting!!) but more often it’s humiliating and sometimes down right sickening.

    Now lets move on with what happened next on the 31st….I did nothing more than glare back at some of these guys – indignantly! Not that it made a difference to them. I reached the playpen on time and got my son out. He was in his elements…thrilled being at the place he loves most (besides mama’s godi). And here’s the interesting thing, as I took him into the complex to catch the movie we had planned on seeing, these guys stared at me as though I had transformed into another being – one distinct remark I heard was “arrey yaar, iska toh beta hai!!” (She has a son!!!) And to make matter more amusing was my lil’ kid kept smiling and wishing them “Happy New Year Chachu!!”… (Every young guy’s a Chachu to him…never a mama!!).

    This whole thing left me with a lot of mixed emotions ranging from initial disgust to a feeling of wanting to burst out laughing!!!

    Should I feel flattered that they didn’t think that I looked like a mommy in the conventional sense? Should I feel sorry that guys need to resort to cheap comments to get noticed? Should I hate them for the looks they gave and the comments they made? Should I just accept and live with the fact that I am a woman in a society where men grow up with this kind of attitude and bias towards women.

    The again…I look at my son and in my heart I make this solemn vow…I will raise him to respect women…I will instill that basic value in him…because I can make that difference here and so can many of you who have children around you. We can change the way society views woman in the future.

    Ps: Ever wonder what kind of children such guys would raise in the future??!!

    Back in time ...

    The other day when I was cleaning up the house for the BIG Christmas Party we have each year, I found my old slam book!! I was all excited and in my excitement sat down to read stuff written by friends…in the book…and forgot all about cleaning for hours! This book was from school days…rather school was just coming to an end. I was in my last year (12th) and of course this book was to preserve memories. I’ve lost touch with most of the people in the book…but some I still am in touch with. The last entry is Rajiv’s (and I was well into my second year of grad then). What amused me is to read about how we thought back then and how much we’ve changed in these last many years…that was my last slam book btw. I have 3 more before that (one when I passed my 10th) and even before.

    It always started out with my entry…my thots, my feelings, favourites and had typical questions like “what’s ur ideal man / ideal woman like”, “idea of luv” … “of frenship”, “of life”…etc etc etc!! And then all my frenz had to list out theirs.

    Reading some of the stuff had me in splits…and some left me with that “Goddd I misss those days feeling”…

    Back then (all those years ago)….I thought like this!!...Read on :- )

    Actress: Michelle Pfiefer (now it’s Meg Ryan)
    Actor: Tom cruise (still luvv him)
    Book: Kane & Able, the Sicilian & Little Women (keeps changing with time)
    Mag: Mad Mag
    Word: Sweetheart (lolz..still use this a lot)
    Jewellery: “still waiting ;-)” (ummmmm…still am!)
    Subject: Guys (something’s never change!)
    Phrase: "Get real!!!" … "6:15" (6 = F and 15 = O)
    Day of the Week: Friday (coz I was born on a Friday!)
    Comedian: Kapil (he was a guy I knew back then)
    Comic character: Dennis the Menace (now it’s Garfield)
    Place: In his (??) arms… (Don’t ask me to rem who the him was back then okk!)
    Past Time: listening to music, writing, talking on d fone (ha ha ha…ditto now)
    Dishes: guys! (!!), Choc cakes, Strawberry ice cream, HCF (hot choc fudge from nirulas:-) !!)
    Song: The Logical song (still like it…)
    Bands: Beatles, Cranberries… (This keeps changing too…)
    Movies: pretty woman, E.T, Sleepless in Seattle

    Life is … to live, love & laugh!! Life comes once & I prefer to live it to the hilt rather than figure it out!!

    Idea of Beauty … Physical beauty is superficial…beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. I believe that anything, any thought / action & most importantly ANYONE who makes me happy is BEAUTIFUL…truly lovable

    Friendship is … what I live for & live by… on a more serious note, it’s the best gift to us…and we should make the most of it.

    Enmity is … something I have yet to experience in true filmi style!!! Serious waste of time….

    Fav Joke: is a dirty one…ask & I’ll tell

    Ideal guy: whewww….tough one!!! One a scale of 1 to 3….1 wld be a guy who’s incredibly romantic, 2 wld be sumone who can treat me real special and 3 wld be sumone wld a sense of humour… looks don’t count so long as he is appealing to me!!

    Ideal Girl: Me??! Nooo coz my ideal girl is better looking (better than me anyway), more independent & can make up her own mind. A girl who luvs to smile.

    Idea of luv … is tooo complex & long to fit in here! Love is hating the word goodbye…love is heaven in his arms! Love is beginning every sentence with his name….luvvv is in his smile…his voice…his eyes…when he’s with me!

    Idea of perfect happiness: refer to my idea of love! (a world without exams!!)

    Aim in Life: I want a dinner date with tom cruise … luvv to stand atop the Sears tower! (Ps: wanna lead a happy life!)

    Greatest Fear: Failure – I know failure leads to success etc etc. But I can’t cope with the hurt and demoralization ever.

    Greatest Regret: None yet. Then again I wish were Drop Dead Gorgeous!!!

    What I hate most about myself: My indecisiveness.

    Love of my life: my passion for life… family, friends and I luvvv to luvvv. Roses!

    I was happiest when: I met my brother after 6 long years. 1st kiss! (and they’re completely different emotions!...but happy!)

    Describe urself: U still wanna know more???! True Gemini…hard to figure out…so don’t waste ur time judging me. U could be doing something better!!

    ……………………………………………….!!!

    That’s about it. It’s interesting to note that essentially a lot of things haven’t changed…though yes, quite a lot has happened over the years since then and I have different views on certain aspects above… and now when I read it all, I know just how much life has taught me since then.

    I went through other blogs talking about the past year…I thought it better to pick up any one particular year from the past and finding my slam book proved to be a blessing in disguise. Memories are so precious … to have them in words and in the handwriting of people who I shared these memories with … is even more precious. I’m planning to write out e-mails to those I’m still in touch with and send them their thoughts…their memories…that’s my gift for this New Year. A walk down that old familiar lane!:-)
    2006-01-01

    New Year Resolutions 2006

    Okk…so I’ve been thinking about it for like ages….can’t think of one resolution that I might follow and keep!! But yes I do have certain things I’d like to learn, do, change … in that order :-)!

    Learn = to cook!
    Do = join a Gym
    Change = my pc room to a proper kiddie room :-) for u know who!

    Learn to cook!! Sounds simple…but BIG for me…coz trust me though I can cook a bit, I hate getting into the kitchen on a regular basis. I have a cook and she’s great and makes nice simple wholesome Bengali meals :-). But I’ve heard my son saying a couple of times…mummy tum banao na kuch…and that’s got me thinking I should get more interested in preparing some meals too!

    Join a gym….hmmmm! Now don’t go thinking I’ve got a weight crisis and nor am I fool to think I’m going to get back to what I was 4 years ago but this is more to get some activity in my daily routine and to maintain a healthy lifestyle…

    And the last…that’s like work in progress but now that my son’s gonna be 5 this year, his own room is one of the priorities this year. So I have the first half of the year to get done and gift him a room by his birthday…along with the roller skates he’s been demanding and the umpteenth beyblade! And the spiderman suit…phewww his list is never ending:-)...

    There are various other lil’ resolutions…most of which are common to every New Year! The most common of them being “keep in touch with family and friends…don’t forget birthdays / anniversaries” - I was perfect at this but off late become very slack :-( !! And “think before u open ur mouth to speak!”…”grow my hair beyond shoulder length!”…actually this is kinda almost done so I should change it too “grow my hair to waist length!”

    Last but not the least…”write more often” … coz I’ve come to realize I quite enjoy it. Writing and reading both! So this year I would like to devote more time to doing just that. It’ll be interesting to come back to this post at the end of 2006 to see how I’ve fared…see if I score a 100% in maintaining all my big and small resolutions. Wish me luck! And I hope everyone has their share of resolutions and is successful in fulfilling them…

    HAPPY NEW YEAR :-)!!!