What’s On His Mind?

…I sometimes sit back and wonder…what’s on his mind right now? Witnesses or not….re-trial or not…in the eyes of people there is no doubt of his guilt. How does a man who commits a cold blooded murder…live and move on with his life? No remorse…No guilt? How does a man grow up to be so selfish? So heartless…he could just shoot someone who meant nothing to him personally for a drink? It’s beyond disgusting…

On one hand there are terrorists who are mass murderers but even they are motivated by a belief beyond themselves. And IN NO WAY am I saying they are justified! BUT call it religion or communal…it’s beyond individual thought…twisted and distorted but they believe they are fighting for a cause…a belief strong enough for them to give up their lives for…IF ONLY they had the same “junoon” for peace and humanity in totality!

And here is a man who is worse…who kills someone for a reason as trivial as a drink and then makes a mockery of the judicial system….and then walks away free! Makes his first trip to one of the most revered religious shrines….I wonder what’s on his mind as he stands in front of the Goddess. Does he seek her blessings? Forgiveness? thank Her for getting away free…?

How does another man scoff at love and kill the man who loved his sister? His family pride…his sense of community...blinds any thought for his sister’s wishes?

And yet another man murders his own ex love? Because she realized she wanted to move on? And he wasn’t man enough to accept this reality? And worse still, he walks away free even after admitting he killed her?

How do people like them live each and every day? How do people around them live with them? I try and put myself in the place of their near and dear ones…would I be so selfish about my family? Would I also shelter and protect anyone I care about even when I know they committed such horrendous crimes? In my worst state of mind I look at my lil boy and I wonder…

What do the parents of such people go through?? How do they face the world? How does it feel to raise a son with all kinds of expectations…and then see them as murderers and killers?

I know there are exceptions above…and there are families with a history of crime…but…do parents really wish for their children to grow up to be criminals too? To be worse than them?

Everyday I read the papers…watch the news…I know no one can answer these questions for them…yet these thoughts keep filling my head…